What a day....What a week!! and fill in Friday to boot

Remember a few weeks ago how I said I mostly posted while DH is deployed....well last Friday after I posted I got a phone call from the shop. I picked up and the guy on the other end said "Hi this is a friend of your DH's and he wanted me to drop a box off for you". Now DH had been saying he had gotten me something for my birthday and that he knew a guy that was going to be on the plane so I would get the box faster that way. So a little while after that phone call the doorbell rang, there was a guy there holding a paper over his face...it was DH!!! He surprised me! [well kinda] Last Thursday I looked at the bank account and there was $70 missing and the charges were listed as a military base in England. My hamster got on and wheel and I started thinking. There was one of two reasons [in my mind] that the debit card was in England. 1. it was stolen 2. he was being sneaky and was in England. So when I opened to door I started crying and gave him a big hug and a kiss then looked at him and said, hey next time don't spend $70 in England. It was a fantastic surprise even though I kind of knew. DD wasn't sure what to think but believe me she has been thrilled to have daddy back in her life.

So this past week has just been family time, since I didnt know DH was coming home, all the food was deployment food, basically freezer meals, single serving stuff or what ever I was craving while walking around the store. So we desperately needed to get to the store and get food, thank goodness it was payday! DH let me sleep in and I got up and had a normal morning/afternoon. I said I'm going to do a little homework but then we can go get groceries, I told him I didn't care if it was Walmart or the commissary, he loves apple butter and the commissary is the only place he can find the kind he likes so he picked commissary, not big deal. We packed up DD and got in the car. Well, I'm almost 19 weeks pregnant so I know I need to keep my water intake up. We were about 3 aisles into shopping and I started to feel light headed. I told DH I wasn't feeling good and I wanted to go buy a bottle of water. I walked up to the front, got a bottle of water out of the case and got in the express lane since the woman in that lane was almost finished, I just started feeling awful and remember thinking to myself once I check out I'm going to sit on the bench. I handed the guy my money and next thing I know I'm on the floor. I remember a gentlemen asking me if there was someone they could call I said my husband was in the store, but I don't remember hearing them call DH over the speaker, I also remember hearing someone say call 911. Then I heard DH come running up and he was at my side rubbing my arm and saying 'babe, babe are you ok what happened' so not only was he worried about me but he's trying to keep DD calm because she was in the cart still. Then 2 women walked over one said she was an EMT the other said she was a nurse, they asked me when the last time I ate was and if this had ever happened before. Then a police officer showed up and was asking me questions, then the firemen and the base EMTs showed up. One of the firemen even had on his shiny silver fire pants. They were asking me questions, the biggest question I was getting asked was if I hit my head, but the gentlemen who came to my side first just kept telling everyone, 'she sat down with control' now I dont remember but I believe the guy. So they let me sit on the floor for a little bit then asked if I was ok to stand up and walk. I informed them that I hadn't tried to get up but I was feeling ok. So they helped me up, I said I was ok to walk so they walked me out to the ambulance to give me some privacy. They took my vitals, they even checked my blood sugar. Now from the beginning I kept saying 'I'm pregnant, I'm about 5 months pregnant' I wanted everyone to know, me worry was about the baby not myself. DH and DD were standing outside the ambulance waiting to find out what they were doing with me. They said they would take me to the clinic to have me checked out, so DH met me at the clinic. They did vitals again and then the doctor came in asked me questions again [I was starting to feel like a broken record]. She said they would do a doppler and check the baby's heart beat. She asked where baby was normally. I pointed to the left side of my belly and said my last ultrasound  the head was here and the feet were here [then point to the right side] so she started to search for the baby, it was taking a long time, so I was starting to freak out. Then she found it but only for about 2 seconds, I wasn't sure what to think, she said maybe I need more goop [because that's the technical term ya know] again only found it for about 2 seconds. Then she decided that she should try lower. I cannot believe how low the baby is!!! Way, WAY lower then DD. Anyways after I was given the all clear DH drove me home and told me to go lay down he was going to take DD and get the groceries but he was only a phone call away if I needed him. He came home, put DD in her room, checked on me, unloaded the jeep, and he even made dinner!! My husband is amazing!! I'm so glad he was there today because I don't know if I would have been bale to handle everything as well as I did without him.

on a lighter note fill in Friday!

1. A word that always makes me laugh is chotchkies
2. If you looked in my refrigerator right now, the oldest thing you'd find would be  a month old lasagna [haha oops!]
3. If I were written about in the newspaper today, on the front page, the headline say preggo passes out in Fairchild Commissary
4. The last movie I saw was in theaters? pretty sure it was Harry potter but DD and I just watched Lion King today
5. The best thing that happened to me in the last few weeks was DH coming home

Life keeps going

Well DH has been gone about 2 weeks give or take a few days....it feels like FOREVERRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I was really hoping this deployment would go fast, I'm hoping once the holidays start up time will fly. I'm excited for Halloween, I'm thinking about ordering DD a bucket with her name on it, that way she has it for when she's really into Halloween. My parents will be here and I'm sure they will want to take her out (since they will be here) but she'll just be 18 months at Halloween so she doesn't really need all that candy, and she really does walk yet, I mean she walks but when you hold her hand to walk you are pretty much dragging her around, so I'm not sure I want to deal with getting her in and out of the stroller every house or carrying her all over the place, I don't know we'll see, it also depends on how cold it is, I mean she's 1 ya know?

DD and J sitting on the kitchen floor

My friend J came over last night, it was a much needed night!! She hasn't lived in the city for a few months. I've missed her. Last time I saw her was back at the end of May. Anyways, she finally had time to hang out, between her 3 jobs. So I met her at the gate we drove on base and she said "I'm hungry" I said well I have munchies above the stove, she grabbed the bag of cheese puffs, well DD saw J grab the bag. Now DD had grab a pot while I was trying to organize my shoe box of a kitchen, I honestly don't even know where the pot came from. She was walking around with it then J sat on the floor, well DD took that as an invitation so sit on her lap. DD was sticking her little hands into the cheese puffs bag, so J put some in the pot, DD just though that was so cool. Well then I slid a box over to J and said anything in here you want. I signed up for a military wife girt exchange and got a bunch of bubble bath, and lotions and a ton of what I call "stinky, smelly stuff".  While I'm very thankful for the gift, being pregnant my nose isn't normal and my skin is all kinds of crazy so I figured I'd off it to J, well J saw the chocolates. So she wanted to eat those, ok fine we'll split the box, I dont need all of it anyways. Plus I don't like nuts in my chocolate anyways. So of course she opens the box with DD on her lap. What does DD want? The chocolate!! So J is trying to give her chocolate while she's eating cheese puffs, my mommy side kicks in and I decided she needed a real dinner. So I made her some raviolis, but she still ate cheese puffs out of her pot. It made her happy so I went with it. 

Well I can hear DD on the twin bed time to get her, and maybe an afternoon snack is in order, maybe some cheese puffs in a pot?

Birthdays, Hormones and Deployments...OH MY!

my cookie cake

Well yesterday was my birthday, woo? Since DH is deployed it was just me, DD and the mutts (not very good company let me tell ya). I love my daughter, but she's 17 months old, she doesn't understand what birthdays are yet. All I wanted was to talk to DH, that's all I wanted, I don't think it's a huge request. He emailed me, it was so nice to wake up to an email that said "Happy Birthday Babydoll" I emailed him back with no response (not uncommon I know he's busy). All day I thought about getting to skype with him. I was so excited. Well he got on later then normal, and I found out that they were kicking him out of his room, well not only his room but the DORM! The National Guard is sending guys over and apparently the weekend warriors have to have rooms and the Active Duty guys are getting kicked into tents!! Don't get me wrong I know the National Guard is important but they don't work and deploy like my husband does. This is DH's second deployment of the year, he was already forced to move out of 1 room and now he got kicked into a tent....oh and to top it off he had to be out of the dorm no later then 7pm, well he woks at 6pm....so that meant we only got to talk for about 30mins because he had to go to bed early so he could get up early so he could move to a tent so the weekend whiners could have real rooms....I know it sounds like I'm being rude or whatever you think but when the Guard goes over there they only stay about a month. I know my hormones are making me cranky, I balled like a baby last night but it just sucks because they dont really get internet in the tents. DH spend over an hour trying to get online tonight, and it only stayed connected for 5 mins, I'm one unhappy preggo. 

What DD did to her room

Today DD PUSHED my buttons. She was playing in her room, like she does most days but today she decided that she would teach herself to climb up on the twin bed and then dump the 2 buckets of clothes that were on the twin bed. Now I know I need to take the buckets down stairs but I honesty didnt think she could get on the bed. the reason I went to to check on her was because I heard her playing with the blinds, that was the first hint that she was on the bed. I walked in and was not a happy mommy. I had to refold and repack all the clothes (which I then moved out of her room). Then I started picking up all the toys that she had thrown all over the floor. I also finally had enough energy to put the sheets back on the twin bed. That may sound really lame but that day bed is a pain! I had to lift the mattress and all that good stuff, well DD felt the need to help. I really though she was gonna get squished by the mattress because she just didn't want to get out of the way. Then I'd get 2 corners of the fitted sheet on and she'd start pulling the sheet off, really? Gee thanks DD. So finally got the bed made and DD crawled up there again, she thought the pillow was just so much fun to play with. Then she wanted to unfold the blanket that was folded at the end of the bed. Oh daughter, how you test me.

Halloween Rag Wreath

So I have been looking at different craft blogs over the last few days and I got bit by the craft bug. I love to craft, but between DD, Deployments, school, and life, I just haven't had time. I use to be a crazy scrapbooker, I miss it and need to get back into, but really need the space for it...anyways back to the wreath. I found a bunch of different wreath ideas through different blogs and feel in love with 2 different ones, I made one tonight.

I've been wanting to make a rag wreath for a while, here is how I made my Halloween rag wreath.

I picked 5 different fabrics (in hind sight I picked too many fabrics with too much black).

I got a 1/2 yard of each fabric and I picked up a wire wreath frame.

I cut the fabric into 1 inch by 5 inch strips (I wasn't exact in my measurements, I marked with a sharpie every inch but that was about it, I folded the whole piece in half, then in half again, and cut on the sharpie marks, then cut the folds, made cutting easier [if that makes sense])

I started on the inside and worked my way out, I took the 5 fabrics and just went in a pattern.

I sat on the couch with piles all around me and just knotted them to the frame, took me a while but I watched TV while doing it, my back hurts but I'm blaming the pregnancy for that (thanks bagel bite!)

Here is the finished wreath (well finished with the knotting anyways)

I also bought a bag of wooden blocks (8 for $2.99) at the craft store and used some extra fabric stripes to cover it, so if you could see it the block would blend in.

I bought a little pre-made sign ($0.79) and glued it to the block that I covered with fabric.

Then I glued the block to the wreath. I pulled apart the strips as much as possible so I could glue it closer to the frame.

Here is the completed wreath on my front door

I wish the prints on the fabric were more visible, the Halloween selection at the store I went to was mostly black based, but over all I'm happy with my first attempt at a rag wreath

Because of the sales that we're going on at the craft store this wreath cost me about $25

Here is where I found the inspiration for this wreath

Sassy Sanctuary

I tweaked it a bit and made it my own though

Ready For Bed

So I got like nothing done today. I ran my dishwasher 4 times, you might think that's good but it was the same freaking load all 4 times because the stupid little soap tab wouldn't dissolve! I desperately need to do laundry, but DD didn't let me leave her side all day. I think she's realizing that daddy is gone and doesn't want mommy to leave too. DD is at an age where she knows but doesn't understand whats going on around her. She also cant verbalize what she is feeling, so yelling and screaming at me seems to be her way of dealing with everything. A girl was suppose to stop by and get a warmer today, I sat around all day waiting on her, I had places I wanted to get to...this freaking girl FORGOT about coming over, I wasting my whole day waiting on her only to find out she freaking forgot! Tomorrow I have a baby shower to go to, should be interesting. Then after the shower I'm going to try and get to the craft store finally. I've been feeling crafty and need to scratch the itch so to speak.

I hardly got to talk to DH today (sad face) he said there was a briefing that didn't start on time so he got out of work way late. Although a few minuets of talking to him is better then nothing. Ok little picking up then off to bed so I can get up early and get a few things done before the baby shower...that girl better show up and get her warmer....

Deployment Playlist

These are all the songs that I have on my iTunes that help me with deployment, some are about distance, others are about love and some have nothing today with love or distance they just put a smile on my face when I really need it. I'm not scared to admit that I have these songs on my iTunes. I'm not ashamed to admit that I listen to them, give them a chance before you judge who the artist is. I listen to a lot of Country and I'm sure you'll pick up on that but I listen to a little of everything, so don't be shocked by this list. Some songs will be well know and others may be new to you, but I ask you to be open minded when it comes to these songs, you never know what might strike a cord with you or even bring tears to your eyes.

I will put the artist first and list them in red, I will also them it in alphabetical order.


Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing
Al Green - Lean On Me
Alan Jackson - When the World Stopped Turning
Aly & AJ - Chemicals React
Ashley Tisdale & Lucas Grabe - What I've Been Looking For
Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone
Becca Rae Greene - Wherever You Are (Morgan's Song)
Becca Rae Greene - Strength
Becca Rae Greene - Seattle
Beyonce ft Jay-Z - Crazy In Love
Big and Rich ft Gretchen Wilson and Cowboy Troy - Our America
Billy Ray Cyrus - Ready, Set, Don't Go
Billy Ray Cyrus - The Beginning
Billy Ray Cyrus - Don't Give Up On Me
Billy Ray Cyrus - You've Got A Friend
Billy Ray Cyrus - Can't live Without Your Love
Billy Ray Cyrus - My Everything
Billy Ray Cyrus - Put A Little Love In Your Heart
Billy Ray Cyrus - Missing You
Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling
Black Eyed Peas ft Justin Timberlake- Where Is The Love?
Blink 182 - I Miss You
Brad Paisley - American Saturday Night
Brad Paisley - Water 
Brad Paisley - Then
Brad Paisley - I Hope It's Me
Brad Paisley - Waiting On A Woman
Brad Paisley - Cooler Online
Carolina Rain - I Ain't Scared
Carolina Rain - All Before The Sun Goes Down
Carrie Underwood - Jesus Take The Wheel




This is a GROWING list, so check back from time to time and see what I've add, also feel free to leave your suggestions in comments I'm always looking for new songs to add to my play list

Good Morning Deployment

Well it's morning 1 without hubby, I didn't sleep well last night. I was too worried about how his flight was, if he got there, if he was still flying, part of me was hoping that he'd call. I know its weird to hope he'd call the first night, but I miss him so much. Well this morning I was woken up by a phone call, it was him!! He called me from over there to tell me he made it safely. It was a great surprise :) He told me the internet over there was working and that he'd get on when he could since he had a briefing in a few hours and had time to kill. So he got on skype (just typing no video or voice) well because I didn't sleep well I fell asleep on him :( I feel really bad but at least I know he made it over there. He told me what shift he's working and its the shift I wanted him on (YAY!!!) I'm really thankful that DD is a good sleeper!! Well I'm going to try and get some stuff accomplished today, so I guess I better get off the couch.

Deployment 2011 Part 2

Well folks he left. Stupid, stinking, high deployment rate. Our base has a really high deployment rate, as in it's really rare for people to be home more then 8 months, for people to stay home longer then that means there is normally something big going on in their lives. DH got home in June and is already gone, he was pretty much home long enough to get me pregnant (at least that how it feels). I have to say that this morning I was not expecting all the helpful offers I received when I took DH into work to catch the bus. More high ups then I can count said "If you need anything don't hesitate to call, actually if you don't call you'll be in trouble". Another said "If something goes wrong with your pregnancy we'll get him home, you have my word", I was floored! Really an offer to get him home if I truly need him? I mean this is his 4th deployment since we got married and his 5th over all, so I'm pretty use to dealing with the ins and outs of life without him (sucks but true). For them to tell me that made me feel even better about him leaving. I was borderline pre-eclampsia with DD and once you have had pre-e you are more likely to get it again, now I was 37 weeks with DD when they said I became borderline pre-e so in my mind that's pretty good. DH made it home in time for DD (only by 48 hours but home is home right?). I plan on talking to my doctor next week about my chances with pre-e and how worried about it I should be about it happening during this pregnancy. I plan on keep DH's shop as informed as I feel they need to be but knowing that if pre-e pops up again and it's REALLY bad or if there is some other emergency, I could have DH home with in a week (maybe less!). On a day that could have been totally awful, DH's higher ups really made me feel better. I was able to hang out with DH for 2 1/2 hours before he left, I took him to work. He said I could hang out in the "waiting room" until the bus showed up. When the bus got there I got all teary eyed thinking it would be the last time I got to see him in the flesh, smell his deodorant (when I'm not using it haha), touch him, feel him. Well then someone said "oh you can come to 2090" woo!  more hubby time! So I put DD in the jeep and drove down the street to the other building, there DH was given all his paperwork but we got more time and that's what really matters. One last kiss, one last hug, one last family moment until the new year.

I'm back, Round 2

Well DH came home in June and I got really bad about using my blog.

So lets update:

DH is deploying AGAIN, yes AGAIN this year

DD is a little energy ball, she never stops moving! Thank God for naps because mommy need down time too!

I'm pregnant with #2! We are really excited, that is why DH deployed again, we wanted him home in plenty of time for baby #2.

I think that's all the big stuff that's happened so far, we are moving to a bigger house sometime when DH gets home from deployment and before the baby is born but the timeline for that is still fuzzy because we aren't sure of a come home date

I'll post again late tonight but DD is getting cranky, I think it's nap time, which means relaxing time for mommy!

Emotional

I have been with my husband for almost 5 year and we have been married almost 3

I love him to Pluto and back [Pluto is a planet damn it]

but I want another baby, it hurts he say's our daughter needs too much attention

I know he think's she is the reason I haven't finished school and maybe thats the way it looks but the school (EWU) I was at before her I HATED. It was AWFUL, it was cold, unwelcoming and I was just failing because no one (the employees, teachers, and advisors) would help me. I found out I was pregnant in October 2009, in January 2010 I transfered to American Military University (an online school). For me, it was a WONDERFUL decision. I liked that it was there when I needed it to be, I didn't have to worry about doctors appointments around classes, I could nap when my body told me it was needed, it was a great decision for me. Well the EWU didn't transfer ANY of my credits so I wasted a whole year of my time (and not to mention money). My husband gets pissed that I'm not working and he feels that another baby would just add to the stress of our life, I don't think we have a stressful life, I think we have a goo life. We just paid off DH's car and we are using our tax return to pay off a credit card. Between the too we are freeing up almost $300 a month!! Diapers are only $55 a month. We can TOTALLY afford another baby.

He is also upset that I don't want to buy a house and move off base. I know he never wants to PCS (damn it) and with his job it's possibly we will never have the option too anyways-but that doesn't mean I want to 'put down roots' here. It's 3000 miles away from home and family. Plus he's DEPLOYED how can I look at houses without him? I could like something and it could be off the market buy the time he gets home and want different things, I can't look at, (let alone BUY) a house without him, really whats the point? Also how does he think we can afford a house when he's bitching about a 2nd baby? A baby cost less monthly then a house! You have the mortgage and the utilities and the insurance and property taxes and what if the water tank blows up? where are we gonna have the money to fix that?! I just don't think we have the finances to buy and own a house! We don't have a safety net if something major goes wrong. I've done the math, it's not in our favor. Debt to income should be 20% or less...we are at about 30% we have a lot of work to do before we are ready for a house.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggggg 

I shouldn't be crying and stress at the end of a deployment phone call!

I should be happy that I got to hear his voice

Fill in Friday

1. What is your must have gadget?
submitted by Flying High With My Flyboy
Laptop and iPhone, I really can NOT live without either

2. How does your adulthood compare to what you imagined it would be like when you were a little kid
submitted by L to the Third
I knew I'd get married and have kids but I didn't think I'd be married at 20, or be a mom at 22. I thought I would be done with school before marriage and kids. I defiantly never envisioned a military life. I wouldn't change my life one bit, I love my husband and daughter.

3.What is your favorite chocolate recipe?
submitted by Our First Deployment
Chocolate recipe? Eatable! I don't like nuts though, lately I can't stay away from cupcakes and caramel Cadbury eggs.

4.How do you deal with military life when it gets to be to much or to hard?
submitted by Combat Boots And Pointe Shoes
I cry, I'm not ashamed to admit that. No one is perfect, and no one is above crying when they are hurt, sad or depressed. Sometimes I call my mom on a bad day. Moving so far away has strengthened our relationship.

5.What piece of advice would you give a new Military spouse facing their first deployment?
submitted by The Albrecht Squad
Plan, plan, plan, plan!! Have a life outside of your computer and phone. Have family come visit or go to them if possible. Take mini day trips to something close to you or have mommy dates, ladies nights. Sitting around with nothing to do makes time drag on. School, work, friends, have a life. The nights are the hardest because you are left with a big bed alone with your thoughts.

Ride the Roller Coaster

It's been an emotional few day, upside I got to order girl scout cookies

This pretty much sums up my day (and the whole deployment)

365 Project

February 7, 2011

School....LAME

February 8, 2011

Heinz wanted to hold the floor down

Emotions are running high

I have been crazy emotional since DH left. This is the first time he's been away from me and DD for more than a week. It just royally sucks. I know, I know, I'm no the first military wife to have to deal with a deployment and I know I'm not the first military mom who has to raise their child without daddy...but man it SUCKS. I don't know why it bothers me so much more this time around, but it just does. This is his 4th deployment in 4 years!! I should be "use to it" by now and in some ways I am, like the empty bed (which I fill with the dogs) and the making just dinner for me, and the alone time...but raise our daughter alone is totally new. I married my husband, but he's married to his job. I love my husband more than the stars in the sky, but every once in a while I hate his job.

Alright on a happier note I need to play catch up on 365

365 Project

February 1, 2011

Nebby being a ding dong and sitting in the play pen again, they just started at each other for a while

February 2, 2011

DD tried cubed carrots tonight! she loves feeding herself!

February 3, 2011

Heinz loves waiting to see what goodies DD will will leave for him, it was scrambled eggs!

February 4, 2011

DD was sleepy and pouting

February 5, 2011

You'd never know it was 5:15am!! 

February 6, 2011

We starting the love of football young!! We are Steelers fans and while they didnt win the Super Bowl today they tried their hardest....isn't my little girl too cute for words!!! TOUCH DOWN haha

Very blah!

My life has become very blah! My mother-in-law bought me a car new key (thank you mommy-in-law). So now I can go place which is nice, I went and got DD some baby friendly food (big adventure I know). I haven't be able to talk to DH for a few day and it's really getting to me emotionally. I got an email yesterday from his and I cried. While I'm happy I got an email it was only a sentence and it didnt really help me feel better (other than knowing he's ok). Tonight I was taking a bath and was listening to music and Mr. Mom by Lonestar came on...oh man I lost it. Now my husband is by no means a Mr. Mom since he works and I don't but he is just such an amazing dad and I'm still not use to him being away from me and DD. While this is his 4 deployment in 4 years! and we have been apart before this time is just totally new. I HATE HATE HATE that he is missing out on the little things. Like tonight DD had ravioli for the first time and she loved it!! To some it's just dinner to me it's DH missing out on DD's first.

Been Here All Along

mmm yeaah

Sunrise and I lifted my head

Then I smiled at your picture sittin' next to my bed

Sunset and you're feelin' okay

Cause you smile at the letter that I sent you today

Can't wait till I see you again

And we'll both say remember when

The band played on the 4th of July

And you held me on your shoulders way up high

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me.

You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

Back then you walked me to school

Tell me to be careful and follow the rules

Fast forward, you taught me to drive.

You gave me the keys and we went for a ride.

And I can't wait till I see you again

And we both say, remember when.

I'm holding on to moments like that,

I know that they're coming back.

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me.

You've been here all along.

yeahh

All along, the way I keep you in my heart and in my breath

You'll always be the one who cares the most

Counting all the days,

I see you runnin' up to say, I miss you. I miss you.

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me. cuz' You're with me

You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

I am not afraid to admit that this is a Hannah Montana song. There normally isn't anything good on TV on Saturday nights, so I had on the Disney Channel. The one episode that came on was where she dedicated a song to the troops. The song above it the song that she sang. My DH is currently deployed and missing out on our lives. The line You're still there for me, Where ever there might be, And if an ocean lies between us, I'll send a message across the sea really connects with me. No distance can make me forget my husband, it doesn't make me love him less. Actually I feel it makes our relationship stronger and makes up a better couple because we treasure the time we have together. I'm not saying we're perfect, far from it. But who is perfect? i also think that once he gets home he'll be a better dad (not that he's a bad dad now, he's a great dad) but I think he'll realize up much he missed our daughter yelling through the baby monitor haha. Go ahead and judge me for liking the Disney Channel and for like Hannah Montana. I like what I like, I'm not afraid to admit that I went and bought the song on iTunes!


365 Project
January 29, 2011

Eggos for breakfast. It was her first time trying eggos and she seemed to like them!

Doesn't really get the whole fork thing yet but I figured I'd let her play with it and eventually she'll get it

What NOT to say to a Military Wife

I saw this a couple years ago and just recently found it again, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one trying to coup with these questions [italic is my added thoughts] I love coming back and reading it as my life has changed over time. 

What NOT to say to a Military Wife
from: Dear Deployment I Hate You

We get a lot of stupid questions and comments. Here are some responses for the next time you get one.


Do you miss him? No. I love being alone. The silence is warming. I enjoy fixing everything that breaks and cuddling with my pillow. [I got married so I don't have to see my husband, but at least the pillow wont roll away haha]

My boyfriend is out of town on business, I know how you feel. Yes I hear there is a huge mortar problem in Michigan.

Aren't you afraid he'll die? No, I had actually forgotten that that was a possibility, but thank you. Thank you for reminding me.

I don't know how you manage, I couldn't do it. Thank God it's not you then. Phew.

At least he's not in Iraq/Afghanistan/Qatar. Hes' not!? Shit, that changes everything. [I get this one a lot! Drives me bonkers!]

Do you think he'll come home for Christmas/Birthday/Anniversary? I don't know yet, he just put in his leave request to the Taliban, we're still waiting for a response.

What are you going to do to keep busy while he's gone? I don't know. Since he's been gone the house cleans itself, the bills are magically paid, and the kids are angels. [So clearly I have nothing to do]

How many days until he gets out? Depends. How many days until you join? [well, some people ENJOY it, not the deployment part, but my DH likes his job and wants to make a career out of it!! So 5  years down 15 to go...]

You'll get used to it. Yeah, the rigorous schedule is something I get used to. I'm actually a robot. I love watching the news, and the surprise missions are like tiny birthday presents from hell. Yes, I'm getting used to it like I get used to a tooth ache.

What is he doing over there? Knitting. [I think I might start using this comeback haha]

He signed up for it. It's his fault if anything happens to him. Yes, and it's your fault for any teeth you're about to lose. [Yes, it's HIS fault that your significant other hasn't been drafted you ass hat! It's your HIS fault you can say stupid sh!t like that!!]

In my opinion - *look at your phone* Sorry, my grandmother is calling from her grave, I have to get this. [oh I hate this one! If you don't know anything about military life I don't want your input. This is my day in, day out life. You watch the news and think you know what it is like, well NEW FLASH you don't know what it is like. So keep your opinion!]

That's awful, I'm sorry! Don't be, he looked hot doing it. He's good. Did your husband fix your sink?

Why don't you just go see him? They frown upon strangers 'round those parts, but by all means, go visit and let me know how it goes.

Don't worry, he'll be home soon. Really? I thought we had 8 months left. Thank goodness you reminded me.

How do you go without sex? Luckily we hold our relationship to a higher standard than simply our physical contact. Oh, and I have self control. Oh, and I only want one man. It's super easy that way. [I HATE HATE HATE the cheating military wife stereotype. A few slutty wives have ruined the good name of the other military wives. It's not hard to keep your legs shut when you know what true love is.]

What if he doesn't come back? Then I will cry until I'm sick to my stomach and I feel like my body is going to break apart. Then I will sleep alone in our bed and have dreams of him being with me only to wake up to him still being gone, knowing he will never come home and that I never got to say goodbye. Oh, too much information? My bad. [well you asked]

Could he not finish college? Nah those Taliban guys don't like to negotiate. [My husband tried college, it wasn't his thing. But again he joined so your SO wouldn't get drafted]

How can you support someone that kills people? It doesn't count if it's in a different zip code. [Have you never given your local police station a donation? They kill people in extreme situations too. That is what is going on right now an extreme military situation. And if you actually knew my husband and his job you would know he's not killing anyone. Most of the jobs in the military are about support, making food, fixing planes and tanks, being doctors, drafting contacts....learn a little more about the military before you assume all my husband does is kill people]

Don't you worry he'll cheat over there? Yes, I'm super worried that he's going to want to sleep with a woman who isn't allowed to speak or someone he works with and risk losing his job. That's what I'm uber worried about.

How can you marry someone who is gone for so long? At least we don't spend 12 months thinking up new ways to hate each other like....oh...sorry. [it's part of the deal we made when we said 'I do'. The time we spend apart makes the time we have together that much more meaningful.]

You look tired. Yeah unfortunately the middle east is in a different hemisphere and no one will move it. [HA! love this come back! I am willing to wake up in the middle of the night to talk to my husband...are you?]

You know he's going to miss out on the kids' lives. I was banking on them living quite a few years. I think they're good. And we have those crazy telegraph do-dads and boxes that you can talk to people through. [Do you think he likes missing out one his kid's life? Missing birthdays and milestones? Honestly I think it makes him a better dad because he treasures the every moment more then the average dad who is always around.]

You never know what goes on over there and his buddies aren't going to rat him out. Yeah, because they're all eating and sleeping. [oh and a good wife knows his buddies and trusts them]

The time will fly. Time will fly, pigs will fly, hell will freeze over....I'm still waiting. [and waiting, and waiting....oh and waiting....]

He's going to be completely different when he comes back, ya know. Yeah, so will I but I'm working on my hulk tear. [and next year your husband will be different too...his beer gut is coming in nicely]

You're lucky. ....compared to.....? [maybe I should play the lottery then]

Fuck the troops. *whisper* Seven days. [You can hate the president, you can hate congress...but you better respect the troops!! They are saving your butt!! I don't how many times I have to say it but my husband WILLINGLY joining means your husband gets to stay home and keep his cushy 9-5 office job, that paid for your fake boobs and your $90 hair cut]

Wouldn't you rather be with someone who's home? Convenience < Quality [and folks my husband is high quality!]

Did you hear about the soldiers killed in - Awesome, thank you. I was hoping someone would slip that into conversation today. [I dont watch the new while he's deployed for a reason]

Can't you text him? Why didn't I think of that!? [although I'll admit technology has come a long way but $4.99 a minuet is not worth it when we make next to nothing, I'll just treasure the moments when he can call me]

That sucks. Well aware. [why are you reminding me?]

Aren't you worried he's going to come back and go crazy and kill you in your sleep or something? Oh that's nothing new. [HA!]

Are you pregnant!? What if you don't get another chance? Do I look pregnant? [This is another stereotype that is annoying, not every military wife is a baby making machine. Are most of the moms? yes, but that doesn't mean that's all we do. I go to school, clean the house, cook meals for my kiddo and I also sell a Scentsy to help buy diapers and gas...more to my life the just popping out kids]

Oh he's in the military...the easy way out. Do you take automatic weaponry with you to brush your teeth?   [EASY?! You think the military is easy?! HA then you join!!]

You deserve someone who can be there for you. Well mine has special powers that yours doesn't. [My husband actually dose have super powers so there!]



You should spend more time being proud than sad. I tried that and it sucked, so now I'm taking the Ben & Jerry approach. Feel free to ride your butterfly out of here. [but your butterfly is not as cool as my unicorn. Have a nice day.]

The front lines are the most dangerous. Dammit, I thought they aimed for the back.

You're single, it's time to party! I'm what? [what logic is this!? hell, I didn't party when I was single anyways haha why start now]

If there's anything I can do, let me know. I hope you're a magician with unlimited minutes.

How do you do it? I haven't written down the process yet, but I'll get back to you. [I don't really have a choice, I love my husband and he's in the military. End of story]

Who says time flies?

It's been the longest freaking week of my life! My husband has been gone for a week...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
The following conversation from "When Harry Met Sally" comes to mind
Harry Burns: You know how a year to a person is like seven years to a dog?
Sally Albright: Is one of us supposed to be a DOG in this scenario?
Harry Burns: Yes.
Sally Albright: Who is the dog?
Harry Burns: You are.
Sally Albright: I am? I am the dog? I am the dog?


Well I guess I'm the dog! I feel like my husband has been gone forever...seriously! My pregnancy felt shorter than this past week. I'm just slowly going crazy. I'm meeting new friends and making new connections which I'm hoping will make this deployment go faster but I miss my DH. Who ever said time flies was not a military wife!! ugg, I guess I'm just going to watch movies on Netflix until the Sand Man pay a visit to me (well if he visits me...he's been skipping my house lately)

365 Project
January 27, 2011

Hinze (my dog) decided to hop into DD's play pen and "vacuum" up the cracker crumbs

Valentine-ish Care Package

So I know it is a bit early for Valentine's Day, but in the military world you have to plan a head if you want to get a care package out (and have them arrive close to the event or holiday you are planning for)

I just used one of DH's old boot boxes (we have like 6 more in the basement).

Not my prettiest work but I have to get it on the plane tomorrow...anyways...

I covered the inside of the box with paper

I added pictures to the box so he has some new pictures. (those happen to be from the day he deployed)

I used photo corners so all he has to do is pop them out of the corners and doesn't have to worry about ripping the pictures when he goes to take them off.

I put hearts and love quotes in the bottom of the box too

Finished!!

In this box:

Cheese puffs

All in 1 laundry sheets by Purex

Valentine's Day candy

Valentine's Day cards

Now all I have to do is drop it off.