Long Time No Blog

Life has been CRAZY since my last post. I'm in school and trying to keep up with that, DD has been approved for speech therapy, I have OB appointments, DH has crazy hours at work, I have crazy insomnia, I'm nesting and oh we are moving soon.....

:Lets break the craziness down shall we?

I have a final this week. Online school fits really well into my life but sometimes I wonder how much I'm really learning. Although since I have been studying the same things for 5 years [thank you stupid transfers] I guess I know more then the person who is only learning about it for the first time. I feel like there is a lot of over lap between the classes too. Currently I am taking a Lifespan Development class...well in the Early Development and Middle Development classes I'm clearly going to be studying the same stuff just more in depth I guess...anyways once I am done with this final I have a month off to deal with the move [more about that in a sec]. Trying to finish....getting there.

At DD's 18 month doctor's appointment DH and I had to fill out a survey about her. It asked things like, can she turn pages in a book, can she throw a ball, how many words does she know and a bunch more. Well based on what DH and I put down they felt she didn't know as many words as she should. He pediatrician said he would put in for a hearing test and a speech evaluation. Well hear test came back all clear and her evaluation came back saying she was behind [which DH kinda felt she was]. The evaluation shocked us to say the least. They said she should know 20-50 word....she knows like 8words. She DD goes to speech twice a week. We've only gone a few times but so far so good, she's been pretty good for them no major melt downs [knock on wood it stays that way]. They even gave us some signs to work on with her to help us communicate a little better. She's doing good with her signs, so we'll see where this all goes in the new year.

I get to see my OB a lot more often now. I really do love my OB, I'm so glad she was recommended to me back when I was pregnant with DD. Everyone in her office is just fantastic, from the receptionists to the nurses. She just keeps teasing us "are you ready, here comes number 2" and she always says hi to DD in the hall way as we walk by, even gives her a lollipop [which of course DD doesn't turn down]. We're getting closer and closer now

DH has crazy stupid hours since my last post...he went from being in a class that got out at noon every day, to being on 12s [working 11pm to 11am] over Christmas, to being off for a week to being on 12s again [7pm to 7am] now I know that is part of military life but I have a toddler [a loud toddler] and my husband is suppose to sleep all day....yea ok...poor DH is more like a zombie. Then after this set of 12s he'll work swings [3pm to 11pm] which I am totally ok with. We just need to figure out when he's going to ALS....and that will be a whole new schedule...my gut feeling is they will do it right on or after my due date. Oh well we'll see

Insomnia and nesting....typical while pregnant. DH came home from work the other day and I had rearranged everything on the kitchen counters in the middle of the night [he was shocked]. I've been crazy about the laundry basket [DH likes to throw his stuff on the floor normally I deal...not lately]. My house is still cluttered but I am working on it.

We move soon....CAN NOT FREAKING WAIT! DH talks to the housing office this coming week to get everything dealt with. We know what house we are getting [layout I wanted YAY] and we know that we will have keys no later then February 15th but I want to move NOW! I will update again when I know more about what is going on with all that.

Well that's pretty much it...Christmas is over I got NCIS season 7 and 8 and I only have 1 more episode to watch before I need something else to keep me entertained

DH also got me Sims 3 Pets [my insomnia is loving it] is addicting to say the least

Are you better yet?!

So DH has been home about a month now and has hardly worked which has been nice! His shop gave him a week off after his "deployment" and then he was on call the week after that (and he only got called in once that week) then he worked a week and then he took a week off to spend time with my parents who came to visit for Halloween.

Having my parents visit was nice, we went to the pumpkin patch and DD went trick-or-treating for a little bit. Poor thing was turning into a popsicle on Halloween it was chilly and what toddler likes to keep gloves on?

As you know from my previous post DH surprised me when he came home, well I had already bought my plane ticket home for Thanksgiving to visit family. DH said I could still go that he didn't want to be out the money and a cancellation fee wasn't really in the budget either so DD and I flew home. Well DD flew home with my parents a few days before me. Well apparently DD got sick somewhere along the way. For the last week she has had the grossest diapers and has even thrown up a few times. She was staying at my MILs house the first few times she threw up but my MIL said she would do it first thing in the morning and then be totally normal all day, with the exception of diapers. Well when I flew in 4 days after DD and they gave me the rundown of what had been going on. She has thrown up once since I got here but these diapers are killing me! I'm 5 1/2 months pregnant the smells my daughter is creating are not my friend....thank goodness my dad works in the house if I'm desperate. DD has needed a bath almost every morning between the blowouts and the barfing. I'm starting to wonder how long this will last (and how long I should let I go). I called the doctors office last Friday (so what 3 days ago) and they said as long as she's taking in fluids and putting out fluids there isn't much they can do for an 18 month old, she'll have to work it out on her own. Well there's lots of dirty diapers that's for sure! She'll eat crackers and cereal and pretty much anything we'll get her to eat (trying to keep it bland even though the dr said we didn't have to stick to a strict bland diet). She's pretty good with bland food all day but by dinner she wants something with a little flavor. But seeing how the bland diet isn't really working I think I'll just avoid fruit. She is CHUGGING her pedialyte so that's a good thing, she'll drink a whole bottle and then some  every day, so that makes me feel a little better. I'm just a nervous mommy. I just hate that she is sick and we are 3000 miles away from DH, our home and her doctor. But at least we are with some family right?

Oh Monday

Oh Monday, normally I dread you, but so far today hasn't been all that bad. My friend J did me a huge favor and sat in my [ messy ] house with DD while I went to the bank to deposit a ton of checks [not a normal errand for me but I'll explain in a minuet], I was able to go to the Airman Family Readiness Center and use their printers [score!] and then FINALLY got to the post office to mail the ribbon wreath to my friend D and Scentsy party supplies to my friend K in England. Now if I would have had to take DD it would have taken me 2 hours [I'm guessing] to get this all done. 

I had a Scentsy party this past Saturday and got paid by check for all but 1 order. This is not normal for me but I'm not complaining, so I had to go to the bank today to get them all deposited so I can get the party ordered. When I took DD to the bank the other day it was a NIGHTMARE! My mom just said "payback"...Thanks mom... She didn't want to be held but I can't really let her run around the bank. The one teller was having problems, I could hear her on the phone saying "I know I just called but the other numbers you gave me weren't working and I need to figure this out" so she had to deal with that, the other teller was dealing with a guy who had a really big envelope full of stuff that he needed to take care of so I was left to wait, finally a 3rd teller showed up and man was he slow....anyways, I am just really thankful that my friend J was able to watch DD today!!

Then I went and printed out 3 chapters of my history book, have I ever mentioned how much I HATE e-books? I mean I like that they are free but I really like having a book better, so I have to print the e-books, well when chapter 1 is 34 pages I dont really feel like wasting my paper and ink either, so good thing the Readiness Center had computers and printers I can use for FREE!! So I was able to print 3 chapters today, I'm hoping I can get back there this week and print out more just so I have them. 

Then I FINALLY for to the post office to mail the ribbon wreath to D, and finding a box it fit in was interesting to say the least! I also had to mail Scentsy party supplies to my friend K in England. K wants to have a catalog party with her friends to try and earn free product [which who doesn't love free!]. I was actually surprised when the lady at the post office told me how to mail it to her cheaper. I have heard for a while now that the postal service has been hurting for money and they have even changed their hours [at least the one here on base did]. So for her to tell me I could save $8 was really nice. Then I came home J and DD and made myself a cup of hot chocolate on my new Keurig machine!! 

Well time to go get DD off the bed, I hear her playing with the blinds. Time for her to take a NAP! Then I'm going to watch some NCIS [love] and do some history homework [hate]

Don't forget it Military Monday!! Hop on over to the Blog Hop!!

Fill in Friday...on Saturday? oops!

1. I always feel like I'm 30 years old, but in reality, I'm 24, my knees crack, my back aches, I'm tired at 4pm.
2. I wish my family understood better when I tell them why we probably will never move, I can't help that DH likes where we are and that he doesn't want to PCS. I don't hate it here it's just getting old, I would like to move and see other bases but I don't get a say.
3. If you saw me when I when I get dressed up for weddings, you'd think I was a total girly-girl, but if you saw me almost any other time, you'd think I was a tomboy through-and-through.
4. I feel like I'm in a totally different universe when I go visit our families for a long time, I don't see camo for weeks, don't have to take my ID out for every little thing, then I come back to military life, its like another world.
5. In honor of this being MFF #60... 60 months ago (exactly 5 years ago, so September 30, 2006) I lived in Pittsburgh, PA and my life was totally different because I had just started my first year of college, I was living in a dorm, finally seeing what life was like with mom and dad always looking over my shoulder and learning about life.  DH and I had only been dating 2 months at that point, he also he hadn't left for basic yet. It seems so long ago!

Military Monday

Fill in Friday

1. What is your must have gadget?
submitted by Flying High With My Flyboy
Laptop and iPhone, I really can NOT live without either

2. How does your adulthood compare to what you imagined it would be like when you were a little kid
submitted by L to the Third
I knew I'd get married and have kids but I didn't think I'd be married at 20, or be a mom at 22. I thought I would be done with school before marriage and kids. I defiantly never envisioned a military life. I wouldn't change my life one bit, I love my husband and daughter.

3.What is your favorite chocolate recipe?
submitted by Our First Deployment
Chocolate recipe? Eatable! I don't like nuts though, lately I can't stay away from cupcakes and caramel Cadbury eggs.

4.How do you deal with military life when it gets to be to much or to hard?
submitted by Combat Boots And Pointe Shoes
I cry, I'm not ashamed to admit that. No one is perfect, and no one is above crying when they are hurt, sad or depressed. Sometimes I call my mom on a bad day. Moving so far away has strengthened our relationship.

5.What piece of advice would you give a new Military spouse facing their first deployment?
submitted by The Albrecht Squad
Plan, plan, plan, plan!! Have a life outside of your computer and phone. Have family come visit or go to them if possible. Take mini day trips to something close to you or have mommy dates, ladies nights. Sitting around with nothing to do makes time drag on. School, work, friends, have a life. The nights are the hardest because you are left with a big bed alone with your thoughts.

Ride the Roller Coaster

It's been an emotional few day, upside I got to order girl scout cookies

This pretty much sums up my day (and the whole deployment)

365 Project

February 7, 2011

School....LAME

February 8, 2011

Heinz wanted to hold the floor down

Been Here All Along

mmm yeaah

Sunrise and I lifted my head

Then I smiled at your picture sittin' next to my bed

Sunset and you're feelin' okay

Cause you smile at the letter that I sent you today

Can't wait till I see you again

And we'll both say remember when

The band played on the 4th of July

And you held me on your shoulders way up high

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me.

You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

Back then you walked me to school

Tell me to be careful and follow the rules

Fast forward, you taught me to drive.

You gave me the keys and we went for a ride.

And I can't wait till I see you again

And we both say, remember when.

I'm holding on to moments like that,

I know that they're coming back.

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me.

You've been here all along.

yeahh

All along, the way I keep you in my heart and in my breath

You'll always be the one who cares the most

Counting all the days,

I see you runnin' up to say, I miss you. I miss you.

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're still there for me

Where ever there might be

And if an ocean lies between us,

I'll send a message across the sea

But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright

I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're with me. cuz' You're with me

You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

I am not afraid to admit that this is a Hannah Montana song. There normally isn't anything good on TV on Saturday nights, so I had on the Disney Channel. The one episode that came on was where she dedicated a song to the troops. The song above it the song that she sang. My DH is currently deployed and missing out on our lives. The line You're still there for me, Where ever there might be, And if an ocean lies between us, I'll send a message across the sea really connects with me. No distance can make me forget my husband, it doesn't make me love him less. Actually I feel it makes our relationship stronger and makes up a better couple because we treasure the time we have together. I'm not saying we're perfect, far from it. But who is perfect? i also think that once he gets home he'll be a better dad (not that he's a bad dad now, he's a great dad) but I think he'll realize up much he missed our daughter yelling through the baby monitor haha. Go ahead and judge me for liking the Disney Channel and for like Hannah Montana. I like what I like, I'm not afraid to admit that I went and bought the song on iTunes!


365 Project
January 29, 2011

Eggos for breakfast. It was her first time trying eggos and she seemed to like them!

Doesn't really get the whole fork thing yet but I figured I'd let her play with it and eventually she'll get it

What NOT to say to a Military Wife

I saw this a couple years ago and just recently found it again, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one trying to coup with these questions [italic is my added thoughts] I love coming back and reading it as my life has changed over time. 

What NOT to say to a Military Wife
from: Dear Deployment I Hate You

We get a lot of stupid questions and comments. Here are some responses for the next time you get one.


Do you miss him? No. I love being alone. The silence is warming. I enjoy fixing everything that breaks and cuddling with my pillow. [I got married so I don't have to see my husband, but at least the pillow wont roll away haha]

My boyfriend is out of town on business, I know how you feel. Yes I hear there is a huge mortar problem in Michigan.

Aren't you afraid he'll die? No, I had actually forgotten that that was a possibility, but thank you. Thank you for reminding me.

I don't know how you manage, I couldn't do it. Thank God it's not you then. Phew.

At least he's not in Iraq/Afghanistan/Qatar. Hes' not!? Shit, that changes everything. [I get this one a lot! Drives me bonkers!]

Do you think he'll come home for Christmas/Birthday/Anniversary? I don't know yet, he just put in his leave request to the Taliban, we're still waiting for a response.

What are you going to do to keep busy while he's gone? I don't know. Since he's been gone the house cleans itself, the bills are magically paid, and the kids are angels. [So clearly I have nothing to do]

How many days until he gets out? Depends. How many days until you join? [well, some people ENJOY it, not the deployment part, but my DH likes his job and wants to make a career out of it!! So 5  years down 15 to go...]

You'll get used to it. Yeah, the rigorous schedule is something I get used to. I'm actually a robot. I love watching the news, and the surprise missions are like tiny birthday presents from hell. Yes, I'm getting used to it like I get used to a tooth ache.

What is he doing over there? Knitting. [I think I might start using this comeback haha]

He signed up for it. It's his fault if anything happens to him. Yes, and it's your fault for any teeth you're about to lose. [Yes, it's HIS fault that your significant other hasn't been drafted you ass hat! It's your HIS fault you can say stupid sh!t like that!!]

In my opinion - *look at your phone* Sorry, my grandmother is calling from her grave, I have to get this. [oh I hate this one! If you don't know anything about military life I don't want your input. This is my day in, day out life. You watch the news and think you know what it is like, well NEW FLASH you don't know what it is like. So keep your opinion!]

That's awful, I'm sorry! Don't be, he looked hot doing it. He's good. Did your husband fix your sink?

Why don't you just go see him? They frown upon strangers 'round those parts, but by all means, go visit and let me know how it goes.

Don't worry, he'll be home soon. Really? I thought we had 8 months left. Thank goodness you reminded me.

How do you go without sex? Luckily we hold our relationship to a higher standard than simply our physical contact. Oh, and I have self control. Oh, and I only want one man. It's super easy that way. [I HATE HATE HATE the cheating military wife stereotype. A few slutty wives have ruined the good name of the other military wives. It's not hard to keep your legs shut when you know what true love is.]

What if he doesn't come back? Then I will cry until I'm sick to my stomach and I feel like my body is going to break apart. Then I will sleep alone in our bed and have dreams of him being with me only to wake up to him still being gone, knowing he will never come home and that I never got to say goodbye. Oh, too much information? My bad. [well you asked]

Could he not finish college? Nah those Taliban guys don't like to negotiate. [My husband tried college, it wasn't his thing. But again he joined so your SO wouldn't get drafted]

How can you support someone that kills people? It doesn't count if it's in a different zip code. [Have you never given your local police station a donation? They kill people in extreme situations too. That is what is going on right now an extreme military situation. And if you actually knew my husband and his job you would know he's not killing anyone. Most of the jobs in the military are about support, making food, fixing planes and tanks, being doctors, drafting contacts....learn a little more about the military before you assume all my husband does is kill people]

Don't you worry he'll cheat over there? Yes, I'm super worried that he's going to want to sleep with a woman who isn't allowed to speak or someone he works with and risk losing his job. That's what I'm uber worried about.

How can you marry someone who is gone for so long? At least we don't spend 12 months thinking up new ways to hate each other like....oh...sorry. [it's part of the deal we made when we said 'I do'. The time we spend apart makes the time we have together that much more meaningful.]

You look tired. Yeah unfortunately the middle east is in a different hemisphere and no one will move it. [HA! love this come back! I am willing to wake up in the middle of the night to talk to my husband...are you?]

You know he's going to miss out on the kids' lives. I was banking on them living quite a few years. I think they're good. And we have those crazy telegraph do-dads and boxes that you can talk to people through. [Do you think he likes missing out one his kid's life? Missing birthdays and milestones? Honestly I think it makes him a better dad because he treasures the every moment more then the average dad who is always around.]

You never know what goes on over there and his buddies aren't going to rat him out. Yeah, because they're all eating and sleeping. [oh and a good wife knows his buddies and trusts them]

The time will fly. Time will fly, pigs will fly, hell will freeze over....I'm still waiting. [and waiting, and waiting....oh and waiting....]

He's going to be completely different when he comes back, ya know. Yeah, so will I but I'm working on my hulk tear. [and next year your husband will be different too...his beer gut is coming in nicely]

You're lucky. ....compared to.....? [maybe I should play the lottery then]

Fuck the troops. *whisper* Seven days. [You can hate the president, you can hate congress...but you better respect the troops!! They are saving your butt!! I don't how many times I have to say it but my husband WILLINGLY joining means your husband gets to stay home and keep his cushy 9-5 office job, that paid for your fake boobs and your $90 hair cut]

Wouldn't you rather be with someone who's home? Convenience < Quality [and folks my husband is high quality!]

Did you hear about the soldiers killed in - Awesome, thank you. I was hoping someone would slip that into conversation today. [I dont watch the new while he's deployed for a reason]

Can't you text him? Why didn't I think of that!? [although I'll admit technology has come a long way but $4.99 a minuet is not worth it when we make next to nothing, I'll just treasure the moments when he can call me]

That sucks. Well aware. [why are you reminding me?]

Aren't you worried he's going to come back and go crazy and kill you in your sleep or something? Oh that's nothing new. [HA!]

Are you pregnant!? What if you don't get another chance? Do I look pregnant? [This is another stereotype that is annoying, not every military wife is a baby making machine. Are most of the moms? yes, but that doesn't mean that's all we do. I go to school, clean the house, cook meals for my kiddo and I also sell a Scentsy to help buy diapers and gas...more to my life the just popping out kids]

Oh he's in the military...the easy way out. Do you take automatic weaponry with you to brush your teeth?   [EASY?! You think the military is easy?! HA then you join!!]

You deserve someone who can be there for you. Well mine has special powers that yours doesn't. [My husband actually dose have super powers so there!]



You should spend more time being proud than sad. I tried that and it sucked, so now I'm taking the Ben & Jerry approach. Feel free to ride your butterfly out of here. [but your butterfly is not as cool as my unicorn. Have a nice day.]

The front lines are the most dangerous. Dammit, I thought they aimed for the back.

You're single, it's time to party! I'm what? [what logic is this!? hell, I didn't party when I was single anyways haha why start now]

If there's anything I can do, let me know. I hope you're a magician with unlimited minutes.

How do you do it? I haven't written down the process yet, but I'll get back to you. [I don't really have a choice, I love my husband and he's in the military. End of story]

Thanks for Noticing

A friend of mine shared this on facebook and I just had to post it here, it makes me feel good that people notice the difference between "us" and "them" (military SOs vs civilian SOs)

The One He Fights For from Alexis Chervony on Vimeo.