middle of the night meltdown

So all day I felt like crap, I got up at 4am when DD woke up but she fell right back to sleep and I didn't DH had a shitty day anyways I've felt like I've been on the verge of tears all day. All I wanted was a nap but since I had the car today I had to wait to pick up DH from work. So I fought the urge to nap and finally went and got DH (4 hours after he was suppose to be done). Got home ate dinner and told DH I wasn't feeling good and I was going to take a nap....DH woke me up at 11pm! now he thought he was being nice in letting me sleep so long, and he really was, but now I can't fall back to sleep because I'm not tired. But when he woke me up I lost it. He's getting ready to deploy, I started BALLING about how I don't want our DD to forget who her daddy is and how I don't want to do it all alone. He just told me that we needed the money and it wouldn't be that long, we go through this every year and I should be use to it. Well 1st deployment we weren't married, second deployment we had only been married 5 months, 3rd deployment I was pregnant. There has been no consistency, this deployment I'm being left with a 9 month old...who is a daddy's girl! She's old enough to know that her daddy wont be here, and it kills me that I can't even try to explain it to her. how do you tell a 9 month old about a deployment? you don't..I tell DH all the time I'd rather be poor and in debt then have to say goodbye to him every winter 4 deployments in 4 years is crazy stupid and I hate that he leaves every year...its only a few months so in that fact I'm lucky but every year he leaves. This year he is missing DD's first birthday....and that just adds to my emotional mess..I know he's not the first military dad to miss an event and I know he wont be the last but I'm just having a hard time dealing with it all right now. It's all happening too fast, I feel like yesterday I was picking him up from his last deployment and our DD was just born...where did the last nine months go!? someone make it stop please!!!

What a day and it's only 2:30

Let see... I woke up at 4am with DD, couldn't fall back been up even since. I was a nice wife and laid out DH's uniform for him (wasn't that nice of me!?). I took him to an office to get some gear checked (where I sat in the car) and then I took him to the shooting range, as I'm getting ready to leave he says "hey will you take my new uniforms to get my stripes sewn on?" so being a nice wife I say sure. Well I get there and I tell them that we  need them to sew name tapes. The woman says "oh we don't make them any more you have to order them from military clothing" umm since when? and they defiantly didn't inform the camo kids they weren't doing it any more because I wouldn't have been there asking for them. Then an older lady walks out of the back room and says "oh they are suppose to give them to him or I can go to a little shop off base and the women there will make them" So I texted DH that I needed to talk to him asap so he cells me I tell him and he get's pissed like it's my fault that they won't make him name tapes. Don't be cranky with me! I didn't do it. I told you last week to go talk to them, I can't help that now you might not have your new uniforms in time for deployment. I have my own life going on. DD had a doctors appointment, where the doctor had to dig wax out of her ear...AGAIN! (they've had to do it every check up) So DD was screaming because I'm sure that doesn't feel good. So now I have a cranky DH and a cranky DD at least DD will get over it by the time she wakes up from her nap. I'm just enjoy the chick flicks I rented (Killers and The Back Up Plan) and vegging and trying to relax. At least until I have to go pick up cranky pants....

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January 10, 2011

DD at the doctors office, she loves playing with my sunglasses.

So she was in heaven...at least until until the doctor came in anyways...

Blah day

Yesterday was lazy, we didn't do much of anything. DH decided last minuet to go out to dinner, he called our neighbors and invited them to go with us. So we were getting ready and DH called them and said that we were ready and gonna leave early and they could meet us there when ever. Well all of a sudden DH runs in the house and goes "they are getting in the car they are gonna beat us!" like it's the end of the world, I told him that the diaper bag is ready and all DD needs is shoes and we can go. So we get in the car and we are almost to the restaurant when they text me saying they are there...DH pouts that they beat us...but he gets over it. So we get there, we sit down and the first words out of his mouth aren't hello...they are "I'm getting a Blooming Onion". Well they finally brought it out it looked like it had been sat on so they asked if the boys wanted another one...and for those good at math...2 hungry men + free blooming onion= yes! so they left the crappy blooming onion and then brought out a second one for them to eat too. So we all eat, we left and on the way home we say 9 deer on the side of the road. It was weird, I never see deer unless it's winter time, so seeing them in the winter wasn't weird but seeing them in general was...if that makes sense. Anyways we went home and played Wii

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January 9, 2010

your immaturity is showing

Really are you that immature? when I state FACTS you delete my comments because you don't agree with me!! I'm sorry that your football team SUCKS I'm sorry that my team EARNED their spot in the playoffs!! Everyone I know Steelers fan, Seahawk fan, Raiders fan...whatever agrees that a team with a loosing season shouldn't be allowed in the playoffs!! The Seahawks had a 7-9 LOOSING season! thats 7/16! thats 43.75%....YOU ARE FAILING!! anywhere else in the world that would kick you out but no because the other teams in the division suck even more the flipping Seaturkeys get in to the playoffs and some how win their first game! The Steelers have a 12-4 season thats 12/16 games won!! thats 75% thats almost double your record Seattle! and thats with the refs hating on my team!! Penalty after penalty after penalty....and fine after fine after fine...we EARNED our spot! So when I make a comment saying that the Steelers EARNED their spot and the Seahoes didn't don't delete it...be a man and live with the facts! and don't say my team sucks! 6 Super Bowl rings disagree with you...oh wait one of those rings was earned when you ate turf Seattle!! and you are all still butt hurt about it! GET OVER IT MOVE ON! you can't change the past, so go to Home Depot, get some wood, nails, tools...whatever...and build a damn bridge and GET OVER IT! and if you refuse to grow up than fill out this form

on a brighter note

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January 8,2011

lots of laundry was done yesterday!

Pancakes!!

Tonight for dinner was breakfast food! DD got to try pancakes for the first time! Since I made them at home I made a few little ones and put them on a separate plate for her. DH likes his covers in syrup so when we go out to breakfast I don't let her try them. She loved them!! She grabbed it off the plate before I was able to rip it up for her, it was so funny to see her trying to stuff a whole pancake in her mouth. I ripped it up and gave her a little plastic fork. She was loving it, doesn't really understand the fork thing, but she'll get it.

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January 7, 2011

DD with her fork

Gooder...really?

Now I know I don't have perfect grammar, but I know that gooder isn't a word! I'm watching The Talk on CBS and there was a Gain laundry detergent commercial...they said gooder...REALLY!! You have a huge team of professionals and you say gooder in your commercial...

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=495179616161

A little reminder

Last night after DH got home I ran to get a few groceries (we are currently sharing a car for a few reasons). But yesterday I went down one of the rows and there was candy on sale (holiday leftovers) so I bought some Dove Chocolate. They all have little saying in them. Today I opened up one of the chocolates and it said "add a little sweetness to your day" it was a good reminder, since DH and I have been bashing head lately. He's preping for a deployment, work is stressful, I haven't been sleeping well and it was just a great little reminder.

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January 6, 2011

really?! it's not my fault

I love my DH...I do....but he's such an ass hat sometimes!! I can't help that the new guys at work suck at their jobs and keep losing tools which means you have to stay 2 hours late at work. I can't help that you didn't pay attention and one of the dogs pee'd on the bed. I can't help that our daughter has stopped sleeping through the night....None of this is my fault, so don't get pissed at me because you are tired and cranky. And you being cranky makes me cranky....don't come home and say lets get drunk and have sex (something I was totally down for!) and then tell me later that you don't want to because the dogs pee'd on the and cleaning it up "took it out of you"....REALLY! DD had 2! blow outs today, you don't see my bitching about it or saying that cleaning her clothes and sheet took it out of me...really! grow up, I know you have a stressful job and working 10 hours makes you tired, but I had dinner waiting for you, went and got you pie, bought you a special candy bar, let you relax and play your computer game....don't take away my drunk sex!! guess I'm stuck with my chocolate and tv until I deiced to go to bed.

Snow Day

Well DD and I slept in again today. I think she's growing. while she has always been a good sleeper its not normal for her to sleep past noon. But today she started her "hay mom come get me" scream. Which today was way more high pitched than normal but she was just being a silly pants. So we got up watched The Talk, I'm not in love with that show on CBS, she ate breakfast, had a bottle and played for a while then was ready for a nap. It's a snowy day which my dogs are LOVING!! My ding dong dogs are snow monsters. They try and eat it all, they would stay out there all day if I let them!! Here's my backyard.

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January 5, 2011

Lazy day

Yet again I'm posting a day late, oh well! What a lazy day we had yesterday. DD and I slept in, it was wonderful!! I put laundry away, watched TV, played on computer. Just a lazy day. I found DD trying to roll over in her swing during her nap, it was comical. DH and I went to the mall last night to return a pot. I got some new slippers! DH also let me get NCIS season 5 and Parenthood season 1 on DVD (they were both 40% off!! I spent $52.15 on 2 TV seasons...talk about a deal!! Normally thats what 1 season costs!! I was a savvy shopper!! DH also got Pictionary Man. We've been trying to play more games and watch less TV spend time as a family and such. 

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January 4, 2011

Oh boy what am I in for?!

My DD is such a drama queen! The smallest things ends her happy go lucky out look! I have watched her bang her head on her her crib and she is fine until she looks at me and realizes "oh mommy's here I can get extra attention!!" Now I don't ignore my DD but I also don't want to re-enforce her "faking". I'm in for it when she learns to talk!! And I don't even want to think about having a teenager!!

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January 3, 2011

this is how she was laying on our bed today while DH and I were skyping with my parents...really! because you weren't getting attention for .5 seconds you are going to pout!! spoiled little girl!!

We're nerds

So pretty much all day yesterday DH and I played Sim City 4...we're nerds. I sat in the bed room playing on the desktop and DH sat in the living room playing on his laptop...yes we're that dorky!! But thats why we love each other, we'll sit and be dorks together. DD would either play on our bed or play on the floor near DH.

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January 2, 2011

DD on our bed giving me the "mommy I want what you have look". She was reaching for my iPhone. She loves our phones. I don't know why but she's obsessed with them.

365 Project

I'm starting the 365 project. I'm really excited!!! I'm a picture fanatic! To the point that my DH gets annoyed some times, opps! Oh well he'll live. Since I have a pretty iPhone 4 it should be easy enough for me to remember to snap a picture every day...so here goes!!

I know I'm behind on posting this but it's from New Year's Day

January 1, 2011

DH was laying on our bed while I was sitting at the computer I looked over and saw this. The dogs having daddy time. DD was napping and Heinz (the black dog) was making sure DH didn't fall off the bed! 

So I failed...but I'm gonna try harder

First off Happy New Year!!

So I failed at the 30 days post...oops!! My life is just non-stop right now. My hubby is getting ready to deploy (insert sad face here) and I have been helping him buy supplies and pack...it's really depressing. My darling daughter is crawling now. It's funny and annoying all at the same time. I'm excited that she is learning new things and finding new things...but when she tried to eat the dog toys and then cries because they hurt, I just want to say "well it's for the dog dork" and laugh. I don't know what I'm going to do when my husband finally gets on that plane....my daughter adores her daddy. He is so good with her too, most weekend he gets up with her and let me sleep in a bit. Now I know I'm biases but my daughter is a good baby. She's a good sleeper, doesn't scream a whole lot, is easy to please. I'm not trying to brag but I am thankful. Even though I am lucky (because I have one kick a$$ daughter haha) I am still dreading this deployment. How will DD (dear daughter) react? will she recognize DH (dear husband) on skype? will she know who daddy is when DH comes home? Will I slowly go insane?! guess we'll find out...