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Showing posts with label DH. Show all posts
Showing posts with label DH. Show all posts

Friday, January 6, 2012

Oh where has the week gone? Day 6 of 2012 is almost over. DH is still at work, so I'm just watching TV waiting on him to get home, the last hour always seems to drag on. This has been a busy week. DD went to speech on Tuesday, when she came out her therapist informed me that she made a chicken nose, umm ok? I have never heard DD make a chicken noise. Her therapist said that she saw a picture of a chicken and said "bock bock".  Today at therapy she said "shhh" and then made snoring sounds like she was sleeping. She amazes me, she really does. I have never said bock bock to her for a chicken, we always say "cluck cluck" and I have never made snoring noises to her either, where on earth is she learning this stuff. She really is a sponge. On Wednesday I had an OB appointment, I went ALONE....it was AMAZING! I didn't have to pack up DD and drag her into the office and hope and pray that she would be a good girl [normally she is but toddlers will be toddlers]. Doc says everything is on track, baby is moving like CRAZY which is good, but why must the most movement happen when I'm about to go to bed? Oh well. After my OB appointment I went to Goodwill just to look. DH and I have been trying to find a dresser for Bagel Bite's room once we get to the new house. We found one for $20 from one of DH's co-workers but we really needed another one. We wanted something sturdy but didn't really want to drop $100 either [couldn't really afford that]. Well Goodwill paid off!! $38 REAL WOOD dresser, almost perfect condition. I'll sand it down and paint it once we make a final decision about what we want in the baby's room. I'm so glad I was able to find a GOOD dresser that will last for a while that didn't break the bank. Thursday my friend J came over and we hard core cleaned the living room and dining room. It looks fantastic, I am so thankful I have a friend that just walks in and cleans. She really helped me out, while this pregnancy hasn't been that bad to me I have had my share of issues and the house has kinda fallen apart a little. On Monday she even helped DH and I organize the basement [that was Monday though]. It's been an eventful but good week, lots got done in the house and DD really surprised me with the things that come out of her mouth. What a week! Oh and tonight I tried a new recipe for frozen quiche, I'll post more about that later though. 

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM THE BAGELS
We put DD to bed but she decided that she wanted to party with us. [notice the cookie mess on her face] Ok so we didn't really party, we were actually really lame, I wasn't feel good so I took a very late nap and woke up again at 10:30pm [LAME I know]. We just watched TV until midnight.

I got my midnight kiss this year!! Since DH and I have been together [July 06] we have only spent 2 New years together. 06-07 he was in basic, 07-08 he deployed New Years Eve, 08-09 already deployed, 09-10 already deployed, 10-11 HOME! and 11-12 HOME! I am very thankful he is home this year to give me my kiss!!

Although my kiss from DD was great too. She saw me kiss DH and came running over to me and leaned in for a kiss, I know the picture is blurry but for those with a toddler you know you take what you can get! 

She even had a kiss for her daddy!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE


Friday, December 30, 2011

Long Time No Blog

Life has been CRAZY since my last post. I'm in school and trying to keep up with that, DD has been approved for speech therapy, I have OB appointments, DH has crazy hours at work, I have crazy insomnia, I'm nesting and oh we are moving soon.....
:Lets break the craziness down shall we?

I have a final this week. Online school fits really well into my life but sometimes I wonder how much I'm really learning. Although since I have been studying the same things for 5 years [thank you stupid transfers] I guess I know more then the person who is only learning about it for the first time. I feel like there is a lot of over lap between the classes too. Currently I am taking a Lifespan Development class...well in the Early Development and Middle Development classes I'm clearly going to be studying the same stuff just more in depth I guess...anyways once I am done with this final I have a month off to deal with the move [more about that in a sec]. Trying to finish....getting there.

At DD's 18 month doctor's appointment DH and I had to fill out a survey about her. It asked things like, can she turn pages in a book, can she throw a ball, how many words does she know and a bunch more. Well based on what DH and I put down they felt she didn't know as many words as she should. He pediatrician said he would put in for a hearing test and a speech evaluation. Well hear test came back all clear and her evaluation came back saying she was behind [which DH kinda felt she was]. The evaluation shocked us to say the least. They said she should know 20-50 word....she knows like 8words. She DD goes to speech twice a week. We've only gone a few times but so far so good, she's been pretty good for them no major melt downs [knock on wood it stays that way]. They even gave us some signs to work on with her to help us communicate a little better. She's doing good with her signs, so we'll see where this all goes in the new year.

I get to see my OB a lot more often now. I really do love my OB, I'm so glad she was recommended to me back when I was pregnant with DD. Everyone in her office is just fantastic, from the receptionists to the nurses. She just keeps teasing us "are you ready, here comes number 2" and she always says hi to DD in the hall way as we walk by, even gives her a lollipop [which of course DD doesn't turn down]. We're getting closer and closer now

DH has crazy stupid hours since my last post...he went from being in a class that got out at noon every day, to being on 12s [working 11pm to 11am] over Christmas, to being off for a week to being on 12s again [7pm to 7am] now I know that is part of military life but I have a toddler [a loud toddler] and my husband is suppose to sleep all day....yea ok...poor DH is more like a zombie. Then after this set of 12s he'll work swings [3pm to 11pm] which I am totally ok with. We just need to figure out when he's going to ALS....and that will be a whole new schedule...my gut feeling is they will do it right on or after my due date. Oh well we'll see

Insomnia and nesting....typical while pregnant. DH came home from work the other day and I had rearranged everything on the kitchen counters in the middle of the night [he was shocked]. I've been crazy about the laundry basket [DH likes to throw his stuff on the floor normally I deal...not lately]. My house is still cluttered but I am working on it.

We move soon....CAN NOT FREAKING WAIT! DH talks to the housing office this coming week to get everything dealt with. We know what house we are getting [layout I wanted YAY] and we know that we will have keys no later then February 15th but I want to move NOW! I will update again when I know more about what is going on with all that.

Well that's pretty much it...Christmas is over I got NCIS season 7 and 8 and I only have 1 more episode to watch before I need something else to keep me entertained
DH also got me Sims 3 Pets [my insomnia is loving it] is addicting to say the least





Monday, November 14, 2011

Are you better yet?!

So DH has been home about a month now and has hardly worked which has been nice! His shop gave him a week off after his "deployment" and then he was on call the week after that (and he only got called in once that week) then he worked a week and then he took a week off to spend time with my parents who came to visit for Halloween.

Having my parents visit was nice, we went to the pumpkin patch and DD went trick-or-treating for a little bit. Poor thing was turning into a popsicle on Halloween it was chilly and what toddler likes to keep gloves on?

As you know from my previous post DH surprised me when he came home, well I had already bought my plane ticket home for Thanksgiving to visit family. DH said I could still go that he didn't want to be out the money and a cancellation fee wasn't really in the budget either so DD and I flew home. Well DD flew home with my parents a few days before me. Well apparently DD got sick somewhere along the way. For the last week she has had the grossest diapers and has even thrown up a few times. She was staying at my MILs house the first few times she threw up but my MIL said she would do it first thing in the morning and then be totally normal all day, with the exception of diapers. Well when I flew in 4 days after DD and they gave me the rundown of what had been going on. She has thrown up once since I got here but these diapers are killing me! I'm 5 1/2 months pregnant the smells my daughter is creating are not my friend....thank goodness my dad works in the house if I'm desperate. DD has needed a bath almost every morning between the blowouts and the barfing. I'm starting to wonder how long this will last (and how long I should let I go). I called the doctors office last Friday (so what 3 days ago) and they said as long as she's taking in fluids and putting out fluids there isn't much they can do for an 18 month old, she'll have to work it out on her own. Well there's lots of dirty diapers that's for sure! She'll eat crackers and cereal and pretty much anything we'll get her to eat (trying to keep it bland even though the dr said we didn't have to stick to a strict bland diet). She's pretty good with bland food all day but by dinner she wants something with a little flavor. But seeing how the bland diet isn't really working I think I'll just avoid fruit. She is CHUGGING her pedialyte so that's a good thing, she'll drink a whole bottle and then some  every day, so that makes me feel a little better. I'm just a nervous mommy. I just hate that she is sick and we are 3000 miles away from DH, our home and her doctor. But at least we are with some family right?




Saturday, October 15, 2011

What a day....What a week!! and fill in Friday to boot

Remember a few weeks ago how I said I mostly posted while DH is deployed....well last Friday after I posted I got a phone call from the shop. I picked up and the guy on the other end said "Hi this is a friend of your DH's and he wanted me to drop a box off for you". Now DH had been saying he had gotten me something for my birthday and that he knew a guy that was going to be on the plane so I would get the box faster that way. So a little while after that phone call the doorbell rang, there was a guy there holding a paper over his face...it was DH!!! He surprised me! [well kinda] Last Thursday I looked at the bank account and there was $70 missing and the charges were listed as a military base in England. My hamster got on and wheel and I started thinking. There was one of two reasons [in my mind] that the debit card was in England. 1. it was stolen 2. he was being sneaky and was in England. So when I opened to door I started crying and gave him a big hug and a kiss then looked at him and said, hey next time don't spend $70 in England. It was a fantastic surprise even though I kind of knew. DD wasn't sure what to think but believe me she has been thrilled to have daddy back in her life.

So this past week has just been family time, since I didnt know DH was coming home, all the food was deployment food, basically freezer meals, single serving stuff or what ever I was craving while walking around the store. So we desperately needed to get to the store and get food, thank goodness it was payday! DH let me sleep in and I got up and had a normal morning/afternoon. I said I'm going to do a little homework but then we can go get groceries, I told him I didn't care if it was Walmart or the commissary, he loves apple butter and the commissary is the only place he can find the kind he likes so he picked commissary, not big deal. We packed up DD and got in the car. Well, I'm almost 19 weeks pregnant so I know I need to keep my water intake up. We were about 3 aisles into shopping and I started to feel light headed. I told DH I wasn't feeling good and I wanted to go buy a bottle of water. I walked up to the front, got a bottle of water out of the case and got in the express lane since the woman in that lane was almost finished, I just started feeling awful and remember thinking to myself once I check out I'm going to sit on the bench. I handed the guy my money and next thing I know I'm on the floor. I remember a gentlemen asking me if there was someone they could call I said my husband was in the store, but I don't remember hearing them call DH over the speaker, I also remember hearing someone say call 911. Then I heard DH come running up and he was at my side rubbing my arm and saying 'babe, babe are you ok what happened' so not only was he worried about me but he's trying to keep DD calm because she was in the cart still. Then 2 women walked over one said she was an EMT the other said she was a nurse, they asked me when the last time I ate was and if this had ever happened before. Then a police officer showed up and was asking me questions, then the firemen and the base EMTs showed up. One of the firemen even had on his shiny silver fire pants. They were asking me questions, the biggest question I was getting asked was if I hit my head, but the gentlemen who came to my side first just kept telling everyone, 'she sat down with control' now I dont remember but I believe the guy. So they let me sit on the floor for a little bit then asked if I was ok to stand up and walk. I informed them that I hadn't tried to get up but I was feeling ok. So they helped me up, I said I was ok to walk so they walked me out to the ambulance to give me some privacy. They took my vitals, they even checked my blood sugar. Now from the beginning I kept saying 'I'm pregnant, I'm about 5 months pregnant' I wanted everyone to know, me worry was about the baby not myself. DH and DD were standing outside the ambulance waiting to find out what they were doing with me. They said they would take me to the clinic to have me checked out, so DH met me at the clinic. They did vitals again and then the doctor came in asked me questions again [I was starting to feel like a broken record]. She said they would do a doppler and check the baby's heart beat. She asked where baby was normally. I pointed to the left side of my belly and said my last ultrasound  the head was here and the feet were here [then point to the right side] so she started to search for the baby, it was taking a long time, so I was starting to freak out. Then she found it but only for about 2 seconds, I wasn't sure what to think, she said maybe I need more goop [because that's the technical term ya know] again only found it for about 2 seconds. Then she decided that she should try lower. I cannot believe how low the baby is!!! Way, WAY lower then DD. Anyways after I was given the all clear DH drove me home and told me to go lay down he was going to take DD and get the groceries but he was only a phone call away if I needed him. He came home, put DD in her room, checked on me, unloaded the jeep, and he even made dinner!! My husband is amazing!! I'm so glad he was there today because I don't know if I would have been bale to handle everything as well as I did without him.



on a lighter note fill in Friday!
  1. A word that always makes me laugh is chotchkies
  2. If you looked in my refrigerator right now, the oldest thing you'd find would be  a month old lasagna [haha oops!]
  3. If I were written about in the newspaper today, on the front page, the headline say preggo passes out in Fairchild Commissary
  4. The last movie I saw was in theaters? pretty sure it was Harry potter but DD and I just watched Lion King today
  5. The best thing that happened to me in the last few weeks was DH coming home


Saturday, October 1, 2011

Fill in Friday...on Saturday? oops!

  1. I always feel like I'm 30 years old, but in reality, I'm 24, my knees crack, my back aches, I'm tired at 4pm.
  2. I wish my family understood better when I tell them why we probably will never move, I can't help that DH likes where we are and that he doesn't want to PCS. I don't hate it here it's just getting old, I would like to move and see other bases but I don't get a say.
  3. If you saw me when I when I get dressed up for weddings, you'd think I was a total girly-girl, but if you saw me almost any other time, you'd think I was a tomboy through-and-through.
  4. I feel like I'm in a totally different universe when I go visit our families for a long time, I don't see camo for weeks, don't have to take my ID out for every little thing, then I come back to military life, its like another world.
  5. In honor of this being MFF #60... 60 months ago (exactly 5 years ago, so September 30, 2006) I lived in Pittsburgh, PA and my life was totally different because I had just started my first year of college, I was living in a dorm, finally seeing what life was like with mom and dad always looking over my shoulder and learning about life.  DH and I had only been dating 2 months at that point, he also he hadn't left for basic yet. It seems so long ago!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Birthdays, Hormones and Deployments...OH MY!

my cookie cake
Well yesterday was my birthday, woo? Since DH is deployed it was just me, DD and the mutts (not very good company let me tell ya). I love my daughter, but she's 17 months old, she doesn't understand what birthdays are yet. All I wanted was to talk to DH, that's all I wanted, I don't think it's a huge request. He emailed me, it was so nice to wake up to an email that said "Happy Birthday Babydoll" I emailed him back with no response (not uncommon I know he's busy). All day I thought about getting to skype with him. I was so excited. Well he got on later then normal, and I found out that they were kicking him out of his room, well not only his room but the DORM! The National Guard is sending guys over and apparently the weekend warriors have to have rooms and the Active Duty guys are getting kicked into tents!! Don't get me wrong I know the National Guard is important but they don't work and deploy like my husband does. This is DH's second deployment of the year, he was already forced to move out of 1 room and now he got kicked into a tent....oh and to top it off he had to be out of the dorm no later then 7pm, well he woks at 6pm....so that meant we only got to talk for about 30mins because he had to go to bed early so he could get up early so he could move to a tent so the weekend whiners could have real rooms....I know it sounds like I'm being rude or whatever you think but when the Guard goes over there they only stay about a month. I know my hormones are making me cranky, I balled like a baby last night but it just sucks because they dont really get internet in the tents. DH spend over an hour trying to get online tonight, and it only stayed connected for 5 mins, I'm one unhappy preggo. 




What DD did to her room
Today DD PUSHED my buttons. She was playing in her room, like she does most days but today she decided that she would teach herself to climb up on the twin bed and then dump the 2 buckets of clothes that were on the twin bed. Now I know I need to take the buckets down stairs but I honesty didnt think she could get on the bed. the reason I went to to check on her was because I heard her playing with the blinds, that was the first hint that she was on the bed. I walked in and was not a happy mommy. I had to refold and repack all the clothes (which I then moved out of her room). Then I started picking up all the toys that she had thrown all over the floor. I also finally had enough energy to put the sheets back on the twin bed. That may sound really lame but that day bed is a pain! I had to lift the mattress and all that good stuff, well DD felt the need to help. I really though she was gonna get squished by the mattress because she just didn't want to get out of the way. Then I'd get 2 corners of the fitted sheet on and she'd start pulling the sheet off, really? Gee thanks DD. So finally got the bed made and DD crawled up there again, she thought the pillow was just so much fun to play with. Then she wanted to unfold the blanket that was folded at the end of the bed. Oh daughter, how you test me.


Friday, September 16, 2011

Ready For Bed

So I got like nothing done today. I ran my dishwasher 4 times, you might think that's good but it was the same freaking load all 4 times because the stupid little soap tab wouldn't dissolve! I desperately need to do laundry, but DD didn't let me leave her side all day. I think she's realizing that daddy is gone and doesn't want mommy to leave too. DD is at an age where she knows but doesn't understand whats going on around her. She also cant verbalize what she is feeling, so yelling and screaming at me seems to be her way of dealing with everything. A girl was suppose to stop by and get a warmer today, I sat around all day waiting on her, I had places I wanted to get to...this freaking girl FORGOT about coming over, I wasting my whole day waiting on her only to find out she freaking forgot! Tomorrow I have a baby shower to go to, should be interesting. Then after the shower I'm going to try and get to the craft store finally. I've been feeling crafty and need to scratch the itch so to speak.
I hardly got to talk to DH today (sad face) he said there was a briefing that didn't start on time so he got out of work way late. Although a few minuets of talking to him is better then nothing. Ok little picking up then off to bed so I can get up early and get a few things done before the baby shower...that girl better show up and get her warmer....

Fill in Friday


  1. Right now, our weather is in the high 50s and its sunny, fall is actually starting to settle in, but what I'd really like is 75 and sunny, and NO humidity
  2. I like to let my hair down and sing silly song to DD and dance around the house to make her smile
  3. Mommy Rambles made a post about heroes... my hero is  my husband, because, he walks out that door every day (99% of the time with no complaints) because he love his job, he deploys with little to no whining when the time comes to get on that plane he reminds me he signed up for this job and that he'll be back soon.
  4. It's a weird combination, but I swear tortilla chips and ketchup are a perfect pair! (and man do I crave it lately!)
  5. Some may see the glass half empty and others may see it half full, but I  never look at it that way really, I am the what if queen so some may say I'm a glass 1/2 empty person but I just like trying to see all the possibility.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Good Morning Deployment

Well it's morning 1 without hubby, I didn't sleep well last night. I was too worried about how his flight was, if he got there, if he was still flying, part of me was hoping that he'd call. I know its weird to hope he'd call the first night, but I miss him so much. Well this morning I was woken up by a phone call, it was him!! He called me from over there to tell me he made it safely. It was a great surprise :) He told me the internet over there was working and that he'd get on when he could since he had a briefing in a few hours and had time to kill. So he got on skype (just typing no video or voice) well because I didn't sleep well I fell asleep on him :( I feel really bad but at least I know he made it over there. He told me what shift he's working and its the shift I wanted him on (YAY!!!) I'm really thankful that DD is a good sleeper!! Well I'm going to try and get some stuff accomplished today, so I guess I better get off the couch.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Deployment 2011 Part 2

Well folks he left. Stupid, stinking, high deployment rate. Our base has a really high deployment rate, as in it's really rare for people to be home more then 8 months, for people to stay home longer then that means there is normally something big going on in their lives. DH got home in June and is already gone, he was pretty much home long enough to get me pregnant (at least that how it feels). I have to say that this morning I was not expecting all the helpful offers I received when I took DH into work to catch the bus. More high ups then I can count said "If you need anything don't hesitate to call, actually if you don't call you'll be in trouble". Another said "If something goes wrong with your pregnancy we'll get him home, you have my word", I was floored! Really an offer to get him home if I truly need him? I mean this is his 4th deployment since we got married and his 5th over all, so I'm pretty use to dealing with the ins and outs of life without him (sucks but true). For them to tell me that made me feel even better about him leaving. I was borderline pre-eclampsia with DD and once you have had pre-e you are more likely to get it again, now I was 37 weeks with DD when they said I became borderline pre-e so in my mind that's pretty good. DH made it home in time for DD (only by 48 hours but home is home right?). I plan on talking to my doctor next week about my chances with pre-e and how worried about it I should be about it happening during this pregnancy. I plan on keep DH's shop as informed as I feel they need to be but knowing that if pre-e pops up again and it's REALLY bad or if there is some other emergency, I could have DH home with in a week (maybe less!). On a day that could have been totally awful, DH's higher ups really made me feel better. I was able to hang out with DH for 2 1/2 hours before he left, I took him to work. He said I could hang out in the "waiting room" until the bus showed up. When the bus got there I got all teary eyed thinking it would be the last time I got to see him in the flesh, smell his deodorant (when I'm not using it haha), touch him, feel him. Well then someone said "oh you can come to 2090" woo!  more hubby time! So I put DD in the jeep and drove down the street to the other building, there DH was given all his paperwork but we got more time and that's what really matters. One last kiss, one last hug, one last family moment until the new year.


I'm back, Round 2

Well DH came home in June and I got really bad about using my blog.
So lets update:
DH is deploying AGAIN, yes AGAIN this year
DD is a little energy ball, she never stops moving! Thank God for naps because mommy need down time too!
I'm pregnant with #2! We are really excited, that is why DH deployed again, we wanted him home in plenty of time for baby #2.
I think that's all the big stuff that's happened so far, we are moving to a bigger house sometime when DH gets home from deployment and before the baby is born but the timeline for that is still fuzzy because we aren't sure of a come home date

I'll post again late tonight but DD is getting cranky, I think it's nap time, which means relaxing time for mommy!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

March 2011 365

ok I'm CRAZY far behind on 365, I've been taking the picture just not posting them.

March 1

my sister (in-law) and her boyfriend with DH's dog Nebby

March 2

Skyping with DH <3

March 3

puppies ready for bed

March 4

HUGE accident on hwy 2
someone hit a bus

March 5

played to hard and passed out on the floor

March 6

cranky baby!!

March 7

messy baby!

March 8

I said bed time and this is where they went

March 9

DD LOVES bath time

March 10

Disney 1 mommy 0

March 11

WICKED!! (too bad DH got extended and will miss it!! booo)

March 12

whats in here mommy?

March 13

the dogs ate the crotch of my pants....

March 14

food!

March 15
playing with daddy's hat!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Emotional

I have been with my husband for almost 5 year and we have been married almost 3
I love him to Pluto and back [Pluto is a planet damn it]
but I want another baby, it hurts he say's our daughter needs too much attention
I know he think's she is the reason I haven't finished school and maybe thats the way it looks but the school (EWU) I was at before her I HATED. It was AWFUL, it was cold, unwelcoming and I was just failing because no one (the employees, teachers, and advisors) would help me. I found out I was pregnant in October 2009, in January 2010 I transfered to American Military University (an online school). For me, it was a WONDERFUL decision. I liked that it was there when I needed it to be, I didn't have to worry about doctors appointments around classes, I could nap when my body told me it was needed, it was a great decision for me. Well the EWU didn't transfer ANY of my credits so I wasted a whole year of my time (and not to mention money). My husband gets pissed that I'm not working and he feels that another baby would just add to the stress of our life, I don't think we have a stressful life, I think we have a goo life. We just paid off DH's car and we are using our tax return to pay off a credit card. Between the too we are freeing up almost $300 a month!! Diapers are only $55 a month. We can TOTALLY afford another baby.

He is also upset that I don't want to buy a house and move off base. I know he never wants to PCS (damn it) and with his job it's possibly we will never have the option too anyways-but that doesn't mean I want to 'put down roots' here. It's 3000 miles away from home and family. Plus he's DEPLOYED how can I look at houses without him? I could like something and it could be off the market buy the time he gets home and want different things, I can't look at, (let alone BUY) a house without him, really whats the point? Also how does he think we can afford a house when he's bitching about a 2nd baby? A baby cost less monthly then a house! You have the mortgage and the utilities and the insurance and property taxes and what if the water tank blows up? where are we gonna have the money to fix that?! I just don't think we have the finances to buy and own a house! We don't have a safety net if something major goes wrong. I've done the math, it's not in our favor. Debt to income should be 20% or less...we are at about 30% we have a lot of work to do before we are ready for a house.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggggg 
I shouldn't be crying and stress at the end of a deployment phone call!
I should be happy that I got to hear his voice

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Emotions are running high

I have been crazy emotional since DH left. This is the first time he's been away from me and DD for more than a week. It just royally sucks. I know, I know, I'm no the first military wife to have to deal with a deployment and I know I'm not the first military mom who has to raise their child without daddy...but man it SUCKS. I don't know why it bothers me so much more this time around, but it just does. This is his 4th deployment in 4 years!! I should be "use to it" by now and in some ways I am, like the empty bed (which I fill with the dogs) and the making just dinner for me, and the alone time...but raise our daughter alone is totally new. I married my husband, but he's married to his job. I love my husband more than the stars in the sky, but every once in a while I hate his job.


Alright on a happier note I need to play catch up on 365

365 Project
February 1, 2011
Nebby being a ding dong and sitting in the play pen again, they just started at each other for a while

February 2, 2011
DD tried cubed carrots tonight! she loves feeding herself!

February 3, 2011
Heinz loves waiting to see what goodies DD will will leave for him, it was scrambled eggs!

February 4, 2011
DD was sleepy and pouting

February 5, 2011
You'd never know it was 5:15am!! 

February 6, 2011
We starting the love of football young!! We are Steelers fans and while they didnt win the Super Bowl today they tried their hardest....isn't my little girl too cute for words!!! TOUCH DOWN haha