My words are my own. I may vent and offend some but I say what I feel.
I'm an overly honest (and loud) person.
I know some may not agree with me but it's my blog, my thoughts and my views.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Blonde Moment...to the max!

I am so mad at myself, we only have 1 key to each car (dumb I know).
I honestly have no clue where they went. Normally they end up in DD's diaper bag because I toss them in there when I'm getting DD out of the Jeep...well they aren't in the diaper bag!! I totally emptied that sucker out in my entryway not there!! I have looked in every drawer and cabinet in my kitchen. I've looked in my bathrooms, I've dug through my couches, cleaned out my hall closet, rearranged my daughter's room...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
if you were key's where would you be?!
A while back we thought we lost the Jeep key so DH called the Jeep dealer they told us we'd have to tow the Jeep down there and then a new key would cost $300!! Well today when I was talking to my Mother-in-law and I told her about my moron moment. She though it was outrageous to have to pay to have my car towed down there. My father-in-law is a mechanic so my MIL asked him it they had to have the car, he said they should be able to make me a key based on the VIN. So he is going to call Jeep tomorrow for me. My in-laws think they will be nicer and more honest with my FIL if he's acting like its for a customer. We'll see!!

Well back to looking and cleaning...blahhhhhhhhhh

on the upside one of my BFs is being induced tomorrow!! I'm so excited for her!!!

365 Project
January 30
My dog is NOT the one inside the play pen haha
sad part...Nebby knows how to jump over the play pen
but she just pouted until I opened the pen up

January 31
DD was playing in her crib while I was cleaning up her room

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Saturday, January 29, 2011

Been Here All Along

mmm yeaah
Sunrise and I lifted my head
Then I smiled at your picture sittin' next to my bed
Sunset and you're feelin' okay
Cause you smile at the letter that I sent you today

Can't wait till I see you again
And we'll both say remember when
The band played on the 4th of July
And you held me on your shoulders way up high

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me.
You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

Back then you walked me to school
Tell me to be careful and follow the rules
Fast forward, you taught me to drive.
You gave me the keys and we went for a ride.

And I can't wait till I see you again
And we both say, remember when.
I'm holding on to moments like that,
I know that they're coming back.

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me.
You've been here all along.


All along, the way I keep you in my heart and in my breath
You'll always be the one who cares the most
Counting all the days,
I see you runnin' up to say, I miss you. I miss you.

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song

You're still there for me
Where ever there might be
And if an ocean lies between us,
I'll send a message across the sea
But you can sleep tonight, knowing it's alright
I'll believe that you were listening to my song
You're with me. cuz' You're with me
You've been here all along. You've been here all along.

I am not afraid to admit that this is a Hannah Montana song. There normally isn't anything good on TV on Saturday nights, so I had on the Disney Channel. The one episode that came on was where she dedicated a song to the troops. The song above it the song that she sang. My DH is currently deployed and missing out on our lives. The line You're still there for me, Where ever there might be, And if an ocean lies between us, I'll send a message across the sea really connects with me. No distance can make me forget my husband, it doesn't make me love him less. Actually I feel it makes our relationship stronger and makes up a better couple because we treasure the time we have together. I'm not saying we're perfect, far from it. But who is perfect? i also think that once he gets home he'll be a better dad (not that he's a bad dad now, he's a great dad) but I think he'll realize up much he missed our daughter yelling through the baby monitor haha. Go ahead and judge me for liking the Disney Channel and for like Hannah Montana. I like what I like, I'm not afraid to admit that I went and bought the song on iTunes!

365 Project
January 29, 2011
Eggos for breakfast. It was her first time trying eggos and she seemed to like them!
Doesn't really get the whole fork thing yet but I figured I'd let her play with it and eventually she'll get it

What NOT to say to a Military Wife

I saw this a couple years ago and just recently found it again, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one trying to coup with these questions [italic is my added thoughts] I love coming back and reading it as my life has changed over time. 

What NOT to say to a Military Wife
from: Dear Deployment I Hate You

We get a lot of stupid questions and comments. Here are some responses for the next time you get one.

Do you miss him? No. I love being alone. The silence is warming. I enjoy fixing everything that breaks and cuddling with my pillow. [I got married so I don't have to see my husband, but at least the pillow wont roll away haha]

My boyfriend is out of town on business, I know how you feel. Yes I hear there is a huge mortar problem in Michigan.

Aren't you afraid he'll die? No, I had actually forgotten that that was a possibility, but thank you. Thank you for reminding me.

I don't know how you manage, I couldn't do it. Thank God it's not you then. Phew.

At least he's not in Iraq/Afghanistan/Qatar. Hes' not!? Shit, that changes everything. [I get this one a lot! Drives me bonkers!]

Do you think he'll come home for Christmas/Birthday/Anniversary? I don't know yet, he just put in his leave request to the Taliban, we're still waiting for a response.

What are you going to do to keep busy while he's gone? I don't know. Since he's been gone the house cleans itself, the bills are magically paid, and the kids are angels. [So clearly I have nothing to do]

How many days until he gets out? Depends. How many days until you join? [well, some people ENJOY it, not the deployment part, but my DH likes his job and wants to make a career out of it!! So 5  years down 15 to go...]

You'll get used to it. Yeah, the rigorous schedule is something I get used to. I'm actually a robot. I love watching the news, and the surprise missions are like tiny birthday presents from hell. Yes, I'm getting used to it like I get used to a tooth ache.

What is he doing over there? Knitting. [I think I might start using this comeback haha]

He signed up for it. It's his fault if anything happens to him. Yes, and it's your fault for any teeth you're about to lose. [Yes, it's HIS fault that your significant other hasn't been drafted you ass hat! It's your HIS fault you can say stupid sh!t like that!!]

In my opinion - *look at your phone* Sorry, my grandmother is calling from her grave, I have to get this. [oh I hate this one! If you don't know anything about military life I don't want your input. This is my day in, day out life. You watch the news and think you know what it is like, well NEW FLASH you don't know what it is like. So keep your opinion!]

That's awful, I'm sorry! Don't be, he looked hot doing it. He's good. Did your husband fix your sink?

Why don't you just go see him? They frown upon strangers 'round those parts, but by all means, go visit and let me know how it goes.

Don't worry, he'll be home soon. Really? I thought we had 8 months left. Thank goodness you reminded me.

How do you go without sex? Luckily we hold our relationship to a higher standard than simply our physical contact. Oh, and I have self control. Oh, and I only want one man. It's super easy that way. [I HATE HATE HATE the cheating military wife stereotype. A few slutty wives have ruined the good name of the other military wives. It's not hard to keep your legs shut when you know what true love is.]

What if he doesn't come back? Then I will cry until I'm sick to my stomach and I feel like my body is going to break apart. Then I will sleep alone in our bed and have dreams of him being with me only to wake up to him still being gone, knowing he will never come home and that I never got to say goodbye. Oh, too much information? My bad. [well you asked]

Could he not finish college? Nah those Taliban guys don't like to negotiate. [My husband tried college, it wasn't his thing. But again he joined so your SO wouldn't get drafted]

How can you support someone that kills people? It doesn't count if it's in a different zip code. [Have you never given your local police station a donation? They kill people in extreme situations too. That is what is going on right now an extreme military situation. And if you actually knew my husband and his job you would know he's not killing anyone. Most of the jobs in the military are about support, making food, fixing planes and tanks, being doctors, drafting contacts....learn a little more about the military before you assume all my husband does is kill people]

Don't you worry he'll cheat over there? Yes, I'm super worried that he's going to want to sleep with a woman who isn't allowed to speak or someone he works with and risk losing his job. That's what I'm uber worried about.

How can you marry someone who is gone for so long? At least we don't spend 12 months thinking up new ways to hate each other like....oh...sorry. [it's part of the deal we made when we said 'I do'. The time we spend apart makes the time we have together that much more meaningful.]

You look tired. Yeah unfortunately the middle east is in a different hemisphere and no one will move it. [HA! love this come back! I am willing to wake up in the middle of the night to talk to my husband...are you?]

You know he's going to miss out on the kids' lives. I was banking on them living quite a few years. I think they're good. And we have those crazy telegraph do-dads and boxes that you can talk to people through. [Do you think he likes missing out one his kid's life? Missing birthdays and milestones? Honestly I think it makes him a better dad because he treasures the every moment more then the average dad who is always around.]

You never know what goes on over there and his buddies aren't going to rat him out. Yeah, because they're all eating and sleeping. [oh and a good wife knows his buddies and trusts them]

The time will fly. Time will fly, pigs will fly, hell will freeze over....I'm still waiting. [and waiting, and waiting....oh and waiting....]

He's going to be completely different when he comes back, ya know. Yeah, so will I but I'm working on my hulk tear. [and next year your husband will be different too...his beer gut is coming in nicely]

You're lucky. ....compared to.....? [maybe I should play the lottery then]

Fuck the troops. *whisper* Seven days. [You can hate the president, you can hate congress...but you better respect the troops!! They are saving your butt!! I don't how many times I have to say it but my husband WILLINGLY joining means your husband gets to stay home and keep his cushy 9-5 office job, that paid for your fake boobs and your $90 hair cut]

Wouldn't you rather be with someone who's home? Convenience < Quality [and folks my husband is high quality!]

Did you hear about the soldiers killed in - Awesome, thank you. I was hoping someone would slip that into conversation today. [I dont watch the new while he's deployed for a reason]

Can't you text him? Why didn't I think of that!? [although I'll admit technology has come a long way but $4.99 a minuet is not worth it when we make next to nothing, I'll just treasure the moments when he can call me]

That sucks. Well aware. [why are you reminding me?]

Aren't you worried he's going to come back and go crazy and kill you in your sleep or something? Oh that's nothing new. [HA!]

Are you pregnant!? What if you don't get another chance? Do I look pregnant? [This is another stereotype that is annoying, not every military wife is a baby making machine. Are most of the moms? yes, but that doesn't mean that's all we do. I go to school, clean the house, cook meals for my kiddo and I also sell a Scentsy to help buy diapers and gas...more to my life the just popping out kids]

Oh he's in the military...the easy way out. Do you take automatic weaponry with you to brush your teeth?   [EASY?! You think the military is easy?! HA then you join!!]

You deserve someone who can be there for you. Well mine has special powers that yours doesn't. [My husband actually dose have super powers so there!]

You should spend more time being proud than sad. I tried that and it sucked, so now I'm taking the Ben & Jerry approach. Feel free to ride your butterfly out of here. [but your butterfly is not as cool as my unicorn. Have a nice day.]

The front lines are the most dangerous. Dammit, I thought they aimed for the back.

You're single, it's time to party! I'm what? [what logic is this!? hell, I didn't party when I was single anyways haha why start now]

If there's anything I can do, let me know. I hope you're a magician with unlimited minutes.

How do you do it? I haven't written down the process yet, but I'll get back to you. [I don't really have a choice, I love my husband and he's in the military. End of story]

Friday, January 28, 2011

A Comic Book...Really?

I'm a Roman Catholic. I will admit I am not the best Catholic, I need to be better about going to church, but all the same I am Catholic. Ever since my DH deployed I have stocked my email. This morning when I woke up I checked my email and got this email.
Umm...to mean that's a little too far! I have nothing against comics, my brother was very in to them for a while. But the Bible in comic form?! Is that really what religion has come too? My DD has a few child friendly bibles that were given to her for her baptism. Child friendly is different than a comic though. To me child friendly is simple, easy to understand words. I don't know why it bothers me, it just does.

On another not my DD is officially 9 months old!! When did that happen?!
365 Project
January 28, 2011
playing with the kitchen we got her for Christmas

Who says time flies?

It's been the longest freaking week of my life! My husband has been gone for a week...
The following conversation from "When Harry Met Sally" comes to mind
Harry Burns: You know how a year to a person is like seven years to a dog?
Sally Albright: Is one of us supposed to be a DOG in this scenario?
Harry Burns: Yes.
Sally Albright: Who is the dog?
Harry Burns: You are.
Sally Albright: I am? I am the dog? I am the dog?

Well I guess I'm the dog! I feel like my husband has been gone forever...seriously! My pregnancy felt shorter than this past week. I'm just slowly going crazy. I'm meeting new friends and making new connections which I'm hoping will make this deployment go faster but I miss my DH. Who ever said time flies was not a military wife!! ugg, I guess I'm just going to watch movies on Netflix until the Sand Man pay a visit to me (well if he visits me...he's been skipping my house lately)

365 Project
January 27, 2011
Hinze (my dog) decided to hop into DD's play pen and "vacuum" up the cracker crumbs

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Tylenol PM? Yes please!

So I've been sleeping like CRAP!
I blam my husband. I want to stay up an talk to him.  So while I'm waiting for Tylenol PM to kick in I figured I'd blog. My husband's dog drives me nuts! She was sitting under the recliner and when I went to get up she didn't move...well duh you dumb dog you're gonna get smooshed under it if you dont move! Oh and she's crazy whiny! Today the neighborhood dogs were all wound up (my neighbor told me later it was because a dog got out of it's yard). So when my dogs are inside they hear the dogs outside and whine at the back door...well I have no problems with my dogs playing outside but it's rained the last 2 days, well I've seen swamps drier than my backyard! So I have been a mean mommy and made them stay inside most of the day.

Last night I got really bored (since I haven't been sleeping well, 3am and I are becoming great friends) I ordered Netflix! I'm in love! DH and I are huge fans of Bill Engvall. Well for a while now I have been trying to buy some of his DVDs (I've just been too lazy to order them online to be honest). Well Netflix has some of his stuff on instant play! I am not afraid to admit that I also watched The Swan Princess, I for got how much I love that movie. There are so many movie that I am finding that I forgot about! Also DH can watch stuff on his laptop because it plays instantly! Hopefully it will make his deployment a little more fun.

365 Project
January 24, 2011

Happy baby in the bath. She LOVES bath time

January 25, 2011
Not happy baby. She was not enjoying her new play pen (or baby jail as I lovingly refer to it)

January 26, 2011

Scrambled eggs for dinner! Look at her using her spork! She is getting way to big!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Get Well Care Package

Get Well Package:
Chicken Noodle soup packets
Gourmet tea packets
Cold medicine
Inspirational “Get Well” quotes
Dole Fruit Bowls
Get Well “pills” (candy coated mints)
Get Well card

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Movie Night Care Package

Movie Night:

Movie (new, used or something found in the basement you forgot about, they will appreciate it)
Microwave Popcorn (or already popped if they don’t have a microwave)
Cracker Jacks
Rice Krispie Treats
Chips & dip
Their favorite movie theater candy
Make a “Now Featuring” Movie poster on your computer and add it to the package
Make movie ticket stubs
Movie posters


365 Project
January 23, 2011

 GO STEELERS!!! Look how excited DD was!!
It was strange not having DH watch with us. He is one of "those" fans. Yells at the TV to the point that he is scaring the dogs and DD. He said he got to see pert of it over there but I know it's not the same. He's really bumming that he has to work the day of the Super Bowl so he is trying to figure out what he can to so he can watch it. I can't DVR it for him because we have DirecTV and they lost their contract with FOX in our area! I'm not happy!! A friend told me I could watch it at her house...she doesn't know what she's in for haha


Monday, January 24, 2011

Football Care Package

What man doesn't love football?

Things to put in the box (just ideas add your own to make it special):
Regulation and Nerf Footballs
Highlights DVDs
Sports Magazines
Team Pennants
Posters of cheerleaders and football stars

I don't know what to do

So before DH deployed I applied for 2 different jobs. 1 in an office setting and 1 at Old Navy. Honestly I only applied because it made DH happy, I don't know that I'm ready to get a job. I love being a stay at home mom and I'm still in school. Well Old Navy called me back and now I don't know what to do. The thing about retail is I'm not guaranteed enough hours to cover day care costs. I am at such a loss about what to do. I really need to talk to DH about this...damn deployment....

Valentine-ish Care Package

So I know it is a bit early for Valentine's Day, but in the military world you have to plan a head if you want to get a care package out (and have them arrive close to the event or holiday you are planning for)

I just used one of DH's old boot boxes (we have like 6 more in the basement).

Not my prettiest work but I have to get it on the plane tomorrow...anyways...
I covered the inside of the box with paper

I added pictures to the box so he has some new pictures. (those happen to be from the day he deployed)
I used photo corners so all he has to do is pop them out of the corners and doesn't have to worry about ripping the pictures when he goes to take them off.

I put hearts and love quotes in the bottom of the box too

In this box:
Cheese puffs
All in 1 laundry sheets by Purex
Valentine's Day candy
Valentine's Day cards

Now all I have to do is drop it off.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Hippity Hop

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Sippy Cups and Cloth Bums
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Oh Little Girl

365 Project
January 20, 2011
So on the 20th I took DD to the play place at the funspot. It was the first time all day she didn't scream at me.  Literally she was pissed off all day, even my friend was amazed at my DD's actions. I am blessed, believe me I know I am. I have a DD who has slept through the night since the day she was born, she is a happy baby, well behaved...but DAMN was she cranky!! I think she had realized that her daddy was missing. Anyways I took her to the play place and she was in heaven! It was totally padded so I didn't have to worry about he falling over (score!) She loves moving and grooving....but falling over is currently part of that. I think we will be making more trips there this deployment.

January 21, 2011
DD was so proud of herself. She knows how to pull herself up, but this was the first time she did it in her pack n' play. She's played the up, down, up, down, up, down game ever since! But sometimes she puts her arm out and falls on it and in my mind I'm screaming OMG! You are gonna break your arm! Oh the stress of being a mommy!

January 22, 2011
mmm, dinner! DD's favorite time of the day is FOOD! I mean we go through a box of Ritz crackers a week! (not gonna lie I help eat them but still!) For dinner I made her noodles, she was loving it! I finally got smart and bought noodles I dont have cut or pull apart!
They were the perfect size for her to eat without help (clearly I was close by and watching her!) But she loves using her new tuffums (thats that we call teeth in our house, we're strange I know)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Thanks for Noticing

A friend of mine shared this on facebook and I just had to post it here, it makes me feel good that people notice the difference between "us" and "them" (military SOs vs civilian SOs)

Friday, January 21, 2011

Dear Deployment

Dear Deployment...f*ck you...I know you are part of military life, but that doesn't mean I have to like you. The only upside to you is the extra money. Honestly I'd rather be poor and in debt then spend time without my husband. I'm terrified of the effects it will have on my DD, she's not even 9 months old yet. She doesn't understand why daddy left her! She just realizes "hey my jungle gym is gone". She ADORES him and he adores her! GIVE HIM BACK!!!

365 Project
January 18, 2011
Ok I look like hell but I was dropping DH off for deployment! so I had been crying all morning. DD was confused but doesnt she look cute in her camo and bow?!

January 19, 2011
no this is not a mistake! I got a call on the 18th from DH and I thought it was my good-bye call...nope.."come get me" is what he said...well crap! Not that I didn't want to see him, believe me I wanted more than anything to be in his arms but that just meant that the process had to be repeated...so the second morning came....DD was still in PJs but they say I <3 Daddy

Crazy few days!!

Alright, so it's been like a week since I posted...oh boy! I know I have pictures to pose for 365 and that I need to play catch up but DH deployed recently and my mind has just been elsewhere. DD has decided that it's fun to scream at me...I can't help that daddy deployed, it's his job...but how do you tell a 9 month old that? She has gotten so motivated lately too. She wants to move and groove and be every where at once! Oh boy!! DH is deployment over yet?! DD is currently standing in her pack n play yelling at the recliner...why? I have no clue...oh and not to be TMI but she's pooping like 3 times a day...thats so not normal! (for the non-moms who follow me you will understand once you have kids haha it's a totally normal topic)

365 Project
(time to play catch up!)
January 14, 2011
Heinz was laying at the foot of our bed and then he heard a dog outside bark and bolted to the window...which meant he was laying on top of me!

January 15, 2011
Watching the Steelers vs Ravens
1 game between us and the Superbowl!!

January 16, 2011
Oh little girl! We went to Denny's and we gave her Gerber Churchies she got one stuck on her lips

January 17, 2011 
Last family dinner (so we thought) I made alfredo (from scratch) and bread sticks, DD was in heaven when we gave her a bread stick

Friday, January 14, 2011


2011...time for change....at least financially!
I'm being brave and sharing my debt for the world to see...I think it will keep me honest and keep the oh sh!t factor of my debt out there
$$$$- under 5000
$$$ - under 3000
$$- under 1000
$- under 500

Mustang $$
Jeep $$$

Credit Cards:
Global $$$$
Best Buy $$
USAA (mine) $$$
USAA (DH's) $$$
Military Star $$$$
Mor $$$

Other Bills (that will never go away):
Cell Phone
Car Insurance

Paid Off:

Game Night-ish

So DH had the day off today...kinda...he had to take stuff to work but other then that he was home all day. He let me sleep in and played with DD all morning! (bonus points) Well at about 3ish he told me to text our friend (because her hubby works at 3pm) and ask if she wanted to come hang out. We played Green Day Rock Band and Mario Party. Well DD woke up from her nap and played in her pack n play for a while but got bored so I took her out and let her play with the rock band microphone.

365 Project
January 13, 2011

Clutter, clutter, clutter!

I admit...I'm a pack rat! I don't know how to fix it!! I like have a clean house but it seems like over night clutter shows up!! The picture below is DD's room. CLUTTER!!! Thanks to an amazing friend it is now at least organized clutter. There is a pile to go to the basement, a pile for the trash, and a pile to donate. I'm hoping I can be better about my clutter! Here's hoping!!

365 Project
January 12, 2011

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

One Happy Hubby

So DH didn't get a lunch break today. I texted him around 4:30pm asking when he'd be home. He told me "soonish" so I started the "what should I make for dinner" inner monologue.  So I looked in our pantry and found a can of Progresso Soup. It was Rich and Hearty Chicken Pot Pie Style. It got my wheels turning, I looked in my fridge and saw Pillsbury Crescent Rolls. I knew then what I was going to make. I dug out my quiche pans, placed them on a cookie sheet and got working. If you leave 2 crescent rolls together it creates a rectangle. I took a rectangle and placed it in the bottom then spooned the slightly warmed soup in. Then I placed another rectangle  pinched it closed. I cooked it at the the time and tempature on the crescent roll tubes (350 degrees and 13 minuets) 2 tubes of Crescent Rolls and 1 18.6oz Rich and Hearty Chicken Pot Pie Style later I had 4 "pies".

365 Project
January 11, 2011
These are 2 of the 4 pies. They look a little gross but my quiche pans have removable bottoms so it leaked a little bit and the blob on the right is the dough that I pinched off. DH ate 3 of 4 pies plus the blob of dough

middle of the night meltdown

So all day I felt like crap, I got up at 4am when DD woke up but she fell right back to sleep and I didn't Frown DH had a shitty day anyways I've felt like I've been on the verge of tears all day. All I wanted was a nap but since I had the car today I had to wait to pick up DH from work. So I fought the urge to nap and finally went and got DH (4 hours after he was suppose to be done). Got home ate dinner and told DH I wasn't feeling good and I was going to take a nap....DH woke me up at 11pm! now he thought he was being nice in letting me sleep so long, and he really was, but now I can't fall back to sleep because I'm not tired. But when he woke me up I lost it. He's getting ready to deploy, I started BALLING about how I don't want our DD to forget who her daddy is and how I don't want to do it all alone. He just told me that we needed the money and it wouldn't be that long, we go through this every year and I should be use to it. Well 1st deployment we weren't married, second deployment we had only been married 5 months, 3rd deployment I was pregnant. There has been no consistency, this deployment I'm being left with a 9 month old...who is a daddy's girl! She's old enough to know that her daddy wont be here, and it kills me that I can't even try to explain it to her. how do you tell a 9 month old about a deployment? you don't..I tell DH all the time I'd rather be poor and in debt then have to say goodbye to him every winter 4 deployments in 4 years is crazy stupid and I hate that he leaves every year...its only a few months so in that fact I'm lucky but every year he leaves. This year he is missing DD's first birthday....and that just adds to my emotional mess..I know he's not the first military dad to miss an event and I know he wont be the last but I'm just having a hard time dealing with it all right now. It's all happening too fast, I feel like yesterday I was picking him up from his last deployment and our DD was just born...where did the last nine months go!? someone make it stop please!!!

Monday, January 10, 2011

What a day and it's only 2:30

Let see... I woke up at 4am with DD, couldn't fall back been up even since. I was a nice wife and laid out DH's uniform for him (wasn't that nice of me!?). I took him to an office to get some gear checked (where I sat in the car) and then I took him to the shooting range, as I'm getting ready to leave he says "hey will you take my new uniforms to get my stripes sewn on?" so being a nice wife I say sure. Well I get there and I tell them that we  need them to sew name tapes. The woman says "oh we don't make them any more you have to order them from military clothing" umm since when? and they defiantly didn't inform the camo kids they weren't doing it any more because I wouldn't have been there asking for them. Then an older lady walks out of the back room and says "oh they are suppose to give them to him or I can go to a little shop off base and the women there will make them" So I texted DH that I needed to talk to him asap so he cells me I tell him and he get's pissed like it's my fault that they won't make him name tapes. Don't be cranky with me! I didn't do it. I told you last week to go talk to them, I can't help that now you might not have your new uniforms in time for deployment. I have my own life going on. DD had a doctors appointment, where the doctor had to dig wax out of her ear...AGAIN! (they've had to do it every check up) So DD was screaming because I'm sure that doesn't feel good. So now I have a cranky DH and a cranky DD at least DD will get over it by the time she wakes up from her nap. I'm just enjoy the chick flicks I rented (Killers and The Back Up Plan) and vegging and trying to relax. At least until I have to go pick up cranky pants....

365 Project
January 10, 2011
DD at the doctors office, she loves playing with my sunglasses.
So she was in heaven...at least until until the doctor came in anyways...

Blah day

Yesterday was lazy, we didn't do much of anything. DH decided last minuet to go out to dinner, he called our neighbors and invited them to go with us. So we were getting ready and DH called them and said that we were ready and gonna leave early and they could meet us there when ever. Well all of a sudden DH runs in the house and goes "they are getting in the car they are gonna beat us!" like it's the end of the world, I told him that the diaper bag is ready and all DD needs is shoes and we can go. So we get in the car and we are almost to the restaurant when they text me saying they are there...DH pouts that they beat us...but he gets over it. So we get there, we sit down and the first words out of his mouth aren't hello...they are "I'm getting a Blooming Onion". Well they finally brought it out it looked like it had been sat on so they asked if the boys wanted another one...and for those good at math...2 hungry men + free blooming onion= yes! so they left the crappy blooming onion and then brought out a second one for them to eat too. So we all eat, we left and on the way home we say 9 deer on the side of the road. It was weird, I never see deer unless it's winter time, so seeing them in the winter wasn't weird but seeing them in general was...if that makes sense. Anyways we went home and played Wii

365 Project
January 9, 2010

Sunday, January 9, 2011

your immaturity is showing

Really are you that immature? when I state FACTS you delete my comments because you don't agree with me!! I'm sorry that your football team SUCKS I'm sorry that my team EARNED their spot in the playoffs!! Everyone I know Steelers fan, Seahawk fan, Raiders fan...whatever agrees that a team with a loosing season shouldn't be allowed in the playoffs!! The Seahawks had a 7-9 LOOSING season! thats 7/16! thats 43.75%....YOU ARE FAILING!! anywhere else in the world that would kick you out but no because the other teams in the division suck even more the flipping Seaturkeys get in to the playoffs and some how win their first game! The Steelers have a 12-4 season thats 12/16 games won!! thats 75% thats almost double your record Seattle! and thats with the refs hating on my team!! Penalty after penalty after penalty....and fine after fine after fine...we EARNED our spot! So when I make a comment saying that the Steelers EARNED their spot and the Seahoes didn't don't delete it...be a man and live with the facts! and don't say my team sucks! 6 Super Bowl rings disagree with you...oh wait one of those rings was earned when you ate turf Seattle!! and you are all still butt hurt about it! GET OVER IT MOVE ON! you can't change the past, so go to Home Depot, get some wood, nails, tools...whatever...and build a damn bridge and GET OVER IT! and if you refuse to grow up than fill out this form

on a brighter note
365 Project
January 8,2011
lots of laundry was done yesterday!

Friday, January 7, 2011


Tonight for dinner was breakfast food! DD got to try pancakes for the first time! Since I made them at home I made a few little ones and put them on a separate plate for her. DH likes his covers in syrup so when we go out to breakfast I don't let her try them. She loved them!! She grabbed it off the plate before I was able to rip it up for her, it was so funny to see her trying to stuff a whole pancake in her mouth. I ripped it up and gave her a little plastic fork. She was loving it, doesn't really understand the fork thing, but she'll get it.

365 Project
January 7, 2011
DD with her fork


Now I know I don't have perfect grammar, but I know that gooder isn't a word! I'm watching The Talk on CBS and there was a Gain laundry detergent commercial...they said gooder...REALLY!! You have a huge team of professionals and you say gooder in your commercial...


A little reminder

Last night after DH got home I ran to get a few groceries (we are currently sharing a car for a few reasons). But yesterday I went down one of the rows and there was candy on sale (holiday leftovers) so I bought some Dove Chocolate. They all have little saying in them. Today I opened up one of the chocolates and it said "add a little sweetness to your day" it was a good reminder, since DH and I have been bashing head lately. He's preping for a deployment, work is stressful, I haven't been sleeping well and it was just a great little reminder.

365 Project
January 6, 2011

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

really?! it's not my fault

I love my DH...I do....but he's such an ass hat sometimes!! I can't help that the new guys at work suck at their jobs and keep losing tools which means you have to stay 2 hours late at work. I can't help that you didn't pay attention and one of the dogs pee'd on the bed. I can't help that our daughter has stopped sleeping through the night....None of this is my fault, so don't get pissed at me because you are tired and cranky. And you being cranky makes me cranky....don't come home and say lets get drunk and have sex (something I was totally down for!) and then tell me later that you don't want to because the dogs pee'd on the and cleaning it up "took it out of you"....REALLY! DD had 2! blow outs today, you don't see my bitching about it or saying that cleaning her clothes and sheet took it out of me...really! grow up, I know you have a stressful job and working 10 hours makes you tired, but I had dinner waiting for you, went and got you pie, bought you a special candy bar, let you relax and play your computer game....don't take away my drunk sex!! guess I'm stuck with my chocolate and tv until I deiced to go to bed.

Snow Day

Well DD and I slept in again today. I think she's growing. while she has always been a good sleeper its not normal for her to sleep past noon. But today she started her "hay mom come get me" scream. Which today was way more high pitched than normal but she was just being a silly pants. So we got up watched The Talk, I'm not in love with that show on CBS, she ate breakfast, had a bottle and played for a while then was ready for a nap. It's a snowy day which my dogs are LOVING!! My ding dong dogs are snow monsters. They try and eat it all, they would stay out there all day if I let them!! Here's my backyard.

365 Project
January 5, 2011

Lazy day

Yet again I'm posting a day late, oh well! What a lazy day we had yesterday. DD and I slept in, it was wonderful!! I put laundry away, watched TV, played on computer. Just a lazy day. I found DD trying to roll over in her swing during her nap, it was comical. DH and I went to the mall last night to return a pot. I got some new slippers! DH also let me get NCIS season 5 and Parenthood season 1 on DVD (they were both 40% off!! I spent $52.15 on 2 TV seasons...talk about a deal!! Normally thats what 1 season costs!! I was a savvy shopper!! DH also got Pictionary Man. We've been trying to play more games and watch less TV spend time as a family and such. 

365 Project
January 4, 2011